Instant Love VI: Forever An Alsina {Hexalogy: August Alsina Story}

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Mariah POV:

I've calmed down a lot since yestaday. And no Chris and I didn't fuck. I didn't even stay at his place. I went ta mines. I have a place out hea' fa when I do come. But I was pissed tha fuck off yestaday. I threw his shit in tha damn pool. He lucky I ain't set dat shit on fire. And I changed tha locks. But he had ta get in eventually. I juss got back ta tha house. When I go upstairs, he's dressed sittin' on tha bed talkin' on tha phone. I walk in tha closet and get my otha two suitcases. When I walk out, he wraps his arms around me and kissed my cheek but I move'em and wiped my face

Me: "Don't touch me. At all. Point blank and tha period. And don't kiss me. Ion know what tha fuck you been doin' wit dat bitch"

August: "Babe I'm sorry"

Me: ""Babe I'm sorry". First off, don't call me dat. Secondly, of course you are, August. You always are. Dat don't do shit fa me, bruh. Time afta time...afta time. I let tha shit slide. But dis...juss fucked er'thang up! I done er'thang ta keep you happy. And ta keep our family ta'getha. I cooked, cleaned, cut certain people off cuz "you didn't like'em". I even done dat stupid ass interview ta clean up all dat shit in tha media. And if you haven't noticed...I not once mentioned all tha shit dat chu did dat lead up ta why I did what I did. I put dat shit...all on me! But did I complain about anythang?"

He juss shook his head

Me: "Exactly. Ya know what. I honestly think there are moe bad times than good. You made me happy on certain ocassions. But chu hurt me...all tha time. It's like you didn't love me like tha way I loved you. Our love was on two totally different levels..."

August: "So you went back ta Chris, huh?"

Me: "Yea I did"

August: "Why? Ta piss me off?"

Me: "No. Cuz he cares. Dats tha real reason why I went back. Through our whole....relationship...I would go ta him. Every. Single. Time. So it didn't start dat night in Miami. It started tha first time you fucked up. So everytime you fucked up....I would go ta Chris. Unlike you...he cares. Been showin' dat he cared since high school. I juss wanna know...what did I eva do ta you? Did I hurt chu in anyway? Did I do sum'n' wrong? I juss want a reason. Bruh...we are in our fourties na. I'm calm. I'm not raisin' my voice. Throwin' shit. Gettin' violent. None of dat. I juss deserve ta know"

August: "You wanna know?"

Me: "Yes..."

August: "You didn't do anythang wrong..."

I juss looked at him wit my eyebrow raised

August: "You were good ta me. You loved me. Cared fa me. Every good thang you could possibly think of...you were. And I took you fa granted..."

I turn and walk off but he grabbed my hand and I crossed my arms

August: "I took you fa granted, Mariah. I fucked up our whole marriage. And I'm sincerely sorry. While you were bein' tha great wife, dat er'body looks fa, I was out fuckin' up. I shoulda showed you how much I appreciated er'thang you done fa me. Tha cookin', tha cleanin', takin' care of our kids. I juss thought about myself and didn't think about what I was doin' ta my family. I hurt tha kids too and Ion even think twice about it. Mariah...I want my family. Our family. I really want chu ta fa'give me"

I juss look at him

Me: "I can't. Not dis time. You really fucked up. Seven months worth. You did...er'thang...juss ta get me ta trust ha. And when I do...you fuck. Dis time...I'm not holdin' dis ova my head..."

August: "Mariah. You're only doin' dis cuz you're pissed. And ta be petty"

Me: "Actually. You're wrong. Ta be honest. *scoffs* I'm not pissed anymoe. I'm hurt. And in all honesty...I'm not bein' petty. Look...I gotta go"