BLACK ROSE || HyunLix

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After the call with Jeogin, Hyunjin haven't been himself. His emotional state is haywire. He does not know what he's going to do if Felix decides to leave him. The thought scares him so much and he doesn't know what to do with it.

I have fallen...

I have fallen so deeply...

I have fallen so desperately...

Fuck...

I love him so much...

I love him so damn much...

Why I'm just realising this now?

I should've noticed the signs sooner

I should've known...

That the desperate need to be with him all the time is not normal

I should've known...

When his smile is enough to make my heart race

His touch enough to invoke heat even in the coldest times

A touch that never fails to leave a trail of shivers in it's wake...

Then his eyes...

Those warm earthy eyes that shines like the sun when he's excited

That sparkles when they see me

Like I'm something interesting

Something he likes...

Something he wants...

Something he needs...

The same eyes that holds the entire firmament

And reflects the whole galaxy...

His lips...

God...

Those lips...

Those lips that can utter the most innocent words

But still whisper sinful nothings
While still tasting like heaven and hell at the same time...

A pink pair of flesh I can't get enough of

It always get me wanting more...

And more...

Until I'm consumed by sheer ecstasy at the feel of him.

When will I ever feel those again?

I fucked up...

I really fucked up...

Felix please I'm begging you...

Don't leave me...

Please...

I need you...

I need you more than anything...

The criminal lamented, sobs racking his whole body.
Tears flowing like an endless waterfall.
He couldn't stop them
He doesn't know how to stop them cause he has never been in such an emotional state before.
Even when he learned of his parents. Especially after what his mother had to go through because of his idiot of a father. He hadn't been reduced to this state. He hadn't experienced this feeling of his heart been ripped apart slowly, as if the person wants to purposefully torture him.
He had tried calling Felix so many times but the younger never picked up. He had sent voicemails, multiple voicemails but no response. He wondered if he had read them.
He didn't want to go to his apartment because that might be the final straw.
He can still bear it to an extent because Felix haven't done it personally. He can delude himself into believing that there's still a chance for them.
But if he should go to his apartment now and Felix tells him to his face, that he's done, he won't be able to handle it. He knows he can't handle it.
And the younger would do that.
Hyunjin knows how resolutely stubborn he is, especially when it has to do with his morals and principles.