Diamonds or Dirt?

Chapter 13: Rylee's POV

I wake up smiling. I  look over for Toby, but instead I find a note explaining that he had to go to work and that if I needed anything to call Sam. There is a number scrawled at the bottom of the page and a phone laying on the table beside me. I decide I'm going to try to change clothes first so I take off my shirt and get one leg of my jeans off, but no matter how hard I try I can't get the second leg off.

I look for my shirt and find it on the floor too far away from me to reach it. Toby told me not to try walking yet so I sit there on the bed trying to figure out what to do. I think about calling Sam, but I'm worried because of what I'm wearing... but then I remember yesterday. He said he wasn't good enough for me I think I can decide that for myself. I get an evil glint in my eye and dial his number in the phone.

He picks up after 4 rings. "Hello." I hear him say.

"Hey Sam sorry to bother you... but I kinda need help with something so can you come to Toby's room?" I say trying to sound embarrassed.

"Alright I'm on my way be right there." He tells me and hangs up. I sit on the bed for a second trying to figure out what I should be doing when he gets in the room. I start tugging on the pant leg just as he walks into the room. His eyes grow big when he takes in what I'm wearing. He looks conflicted like he can't decide wether to look or look away. Eventually he just stands there staring at me.

"Are you just going to stand there or are you going to figure out how to help me get these things off?" I ask him getting frustrated.

He steps up to the bed and replaces my hands with his. He pulls the pant leg back up and his fingers lightly brush my thigh. Our eyes lock and I shiver. I can feel the pant leg slipping over my foot and i blush from the contact of his hand. We only look away when toby realizes he is now holding the pants in his hand.

"Thanks." I say looking away from him no longer so sure about my actions. He doesn't even seem phased at all.

"No problem. Need anything else?" He asks.

I take a breath to gain some confidence back. "Well I'm still not supposed to walk so I kinda need some clothes unless you want me to stay like this all day." I say and wink at him. "I would, but that might be kinda hard to explain to Toby." I say teasing him and I can see that it worked by the look in his eyes.

"Maybe I will let you stay like that." He says walking to my side of the bed. He leans down over me forcing me to push against the mattress. His lips are only inches away and I can feel his breath hit me in the face. I want so bad for him to kiss me. I close my eyes and wait for it, but I'm surprised and slightly hurt when he prushes his nose against mine and brings his mouth close to my ear.

"I told you that you deserve someone better than me, that doesn't mean I don't want you. Don't tempt me Ry. I might just give in." He says in a breathy voice making me shiver with happiness. He gave me a nickname and he told me he wants me. I just don't see the problem.

"You gave me a nickname." I tell him happily.

"Yeah I guess I did." He says scratching the back of his head and smiling sheepishly.

He sits down on the edge of the bed and I just watch him. I watch him until I can't take it any more I move towards him and I brush my lips against his cheek causing him to exhale sharply.

"I don't like it when you tease me Sammy. I think I can decide who I need. I definitely can decide who I want, but right now I'd appreciate it if you would find me some sweat pants and a t-shirt to wear." I tell him in a breathy voice. Before sitting back and looking at him knowingly.

He gets up and finds everything easily and tosses sweat pants and a shirt at me. I slide them on then beckon him over to the bed. He walks towards me and I motion for him to come closer. He leans in and my heart is pounding out of my chest. I grab his shirt and pull his lips to mine. He gasps and I take advantage of that and deepen the kiss. I can feel him stiffen before he gives in and kisses me back. He is such a good kisser I could kiss him and never stop. He eventually breaks the kiss and backs away.Then presses his lips to mine once again quickly before pulling away.

I pout and he laughs and then he pulls me into a hug. I can feel he is about to pull away so I wrap my arms around his neck and bury my face against his shoulder. "Carry me downstairs?" I ask him thinking past the heat coursing through my body.

I look up at him and he nods swinging me into his arms. He puts me on the couch then heads to the kitchen. I lay there reliving the kiss and knowing that no matter what I can't let him get away from me. I need him now. I need his touch, his kiss, his hugs. I need the feeling I get when he looks at me. I'm going to have to break up with Toby... but how can I do that without losing Sam too?

After a few minutes Sam comes back into the room and carrys me to the kitchen. He puts me down in front of a plate of panckaes and I dig in. I just swallowed when the phone on the table rings. I answer it.

"Hello, who is this?" I ask.

"This is Cierra, can I talk to Toby?" She asks.

"Cierra alright well Toby isnt hear right now can I take a message?" I ask her.

I look up to see Sam motioning for the phone but I just shake my head at him.

"Well can you tell Toby he left his jacket here last night?" She asks me and I can feel my face fall. He is cheating on me. I mean I'm cheating on him too but he spent the night with her. I decide to play dumb.

"Jacket, why is his jacket at your house?"I ask pretending not to know what's going on.

"Toby stayed here last night. I'm sure you arent aware of this, but I find no need to hide it from you. He will leave you eventually like all the others. Maybe if you leave him he will come crying to me. So yeah we slept together... we have been for a while. Just tell him I called alright. And by the way. Don't tell Toby about this or you will be sorry." Cierra says and then the line goes dead. I know there is horror evident on my face, and I have to say I'm a little hurt.

I drop the phone and push my plate away. I look up at Sam who is staring at me sadly. It's almost like he knows... does he know? There is no way he knows. He would have told me. But then again he lives above the garage so he would have heard him leave. Did he betray me too.

Sam wraps his arms around me and I push him away. He pulls back and looks at me. "Did you know about Toby and Cierra?" I ask him. He swallows and looks away and that is all the proof  need. "Sam get me some crutches. I don't need a babysitter. I certainly don't wont one who doesn't tell me that my boyfriend is cheating on me. So please bring me some crutches and leave me alone!" I say screaming the last part.

Sam looks like he is about to cry but I can't feel bad for him. I refuse to let him make me feel bad. He looks like he is going to say something, but then he changes his mind and just nods. He walks out of the house and returns a few minutes later carrying crutches. He leans them against the table and looks down at me sadly.

"I'm sorry Miss." He says causing me to flinch at what he calls me, "I should have told you as soon as I knew for sure, but I didn't want to break your heart. I did warn you, but I'm deeply sorry. I'm going to go clean the stalls if you need anything don't hesitate to call." He says and with that he walks out of the house.

Only then do I let myself cry. I break down in tears. I cry for myself. I cry because I let myself fall for two guys at once. I cry because I was such an idiot to think Toby was a good guy. I cry because I know I hurt Sam. I cry because I feel betrayed, but mostly I cry because I love Sam and I don't know what to do to prove it.I write down a not for Toby about his jacket because I know I wont be able to tell him in person.

I cry for hours without stopping, and when I hear the door open again I see Toby. He walks over to me and puts his hand on my shoulder and is about to ask me whats wrong when I silence him by handing him the note. He reads it and his eyes widen before he looks down at me.

"I can explain." He says, but I stop him.

"Don't even try Toby. I know everything." I tell him.

He looks at me with a sad smile then walks away leaving me there by myself. At that moment I realize Toby is no longer part of my life. There is a moment of happiness when I realize Toby is out of my system completely and the only thing I can think about is Sam.

Sam is who I'm supposed to be with.

Sam is who I love, and I just pushed him away.

Will he even love me now?