"Hollis?" I knocked on the mahogany wooden door that led to his room.
"Come in." He replied and I opened the door. I saw that he was moping around on the couch eating some chips.
"Sorry about earlier. You're the alpha and all. I'm forced to follow your orders after all." I said trying to cheer the guy up.
"See, look. You call me alpha and you follow my orders and you don't trust me. We're mates. We were supposed to instantaneously fall in love." He said as he looked at me longingly.
I started to feel self conscious.
Instantaneously fall in love...that seems impossible now.
"How do you expect me to fall in love with you instantaneously. You're the whole reason I can't fall in love with you." I blurt out. I wave my hands in the air to emphasize how much this subject is touchy to me.
"I know! You think I don't know?! Damnit it Frankie!" He said exasperatedly and stood up leaving the chips on the couch.
He started to approach me and I took large steps back.
"You can't expect me to jump into your arms! You haven't given me the slightest bit of respect since my parents died! I was supposed to grow up as beta. I was supposed to find my mate and love him. He would've been my best friend. But, no you ended up being my mate. Out of all the werewolves...it was you!" I shout and get all the courage I could to step forward.
I started to jab my finger into his chest. He was slowly taking steps back as I kept moving forward. My finger still jabbing his chest.
"I was supposed to have an at least decent life. Hell, I should've gone rogue when I had the chance to run away with Scott. Do you know how much it hurts to have your best friend completely turn on you? You let them bully me! But, worst thing is," I sucked in a shaky breathe ready to fall apart, "it's that you bullied me too."
"Cara mia, I know I've done you wrong. Just let me try. Give me the benefit of the doubt." Hollis pleaded.
"I can't give you the benefit of the doubt. I can't trust you in general." I said and walked past him to the bed.
I buried my head in my hands. Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I remembered every single little detail about Hollis and I's past friendship.
The time when we were as close as family. When I could trust him in catching me in a trust fall. When life was simpler.
"Frankie, I know. Believe me. I regret everything after beta-"
"You're not to say his name! You're not allowed to say his name! You don't have that right anymore!" I seethed as I shot up and started to push him with my palms .
"I-I'm sorry." Hollis said shamefully and stood in place. He placed a firm hand on my waist and the other under my chin.
"I really am. I hope that over time you'll at least give me the benefit of the doubt." He said softly. Placing a soft feather like kiss on my forehead.
"Whatever." I muttered and pushed him away roughly.
You have to give him a chance. Alessandra was practically pleading that I would.
Maybe I will. Maybe I won't but, all I know right now is I can't trust a single word he says. You can't just forget years of your life sandy. I reason with her and she knows I'm right so she stays quiet.
"I'm going to go to my room and sleep there tonight. Don't even bother to come check on me." I state simply and he nods.
I let out a triumphant smile and begin to walk out of the room. Practically skipping to my room.
When I finally get to the room. I see that my mattress is replaced with a bed. The walls were coated in a sea foam white. There was a new vanity pushed against the wall.
This was more than I deserved and I didn't like it.
Some pieces of art hung from the sea foam white walls. One that caught my attention was the one where there was a small wolf and a bigger wolf. They seemed so...in love.
I took in a deep breathe and plopped onto my new bed. As much as I loved this bed...it didn't feel like coming home to the one thing that's ever kept me somewhat warm.
I honestly don't think I can be here another day, sandy. It scares the living daylight a out of me. My words don't seem to affect sandy in anyway.
It's okay. You don't need to hide your thoughts from me. I know you don't feel exactly safe. I just want you to be healthy and happy. You're more important than our stupid mate. I support whatever you want to do. Sandy explained trying to give me the hint that she knows that I've been wanting to run away.
Thanks sandy. I love you so much though. I can't run away unless you want to. I reminded her. Soon she grew quiet in thought.
Like I said. I love you more than that stupid mate of ours. Sandy said sweetly. I couldn't help but smile at her words.
Tonight? I ask uneasily. I don't hear her response in what seemed forever.
Yeah. Tonight... I could hear the uncertainty in her voice. She didn't want to leave but, I did. I wanted to run away and she was agreeing to it.
Even if it meant leaving her mate.
