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"It's just that you seem to have liked another person more than you like me."

My mind went blank and my face was full of question marks.

"What do you mean?"

He tried getting rid of the sudden awkward atmosphere by changing his tone of speech. "Yah, how can you yourself not realize that. You're totally in love with Park Jimin."

"Wha- Park Jimin?" I curled my eyebrows as I don't quite get what he is trying to prove.

"Yeah," he gave me a smile which slightly showed a hurt feeling behind it.

"Stop joking around, Jungkook." I tried softening my facial expression, "It's not funny."

He let out a disheartened sigh, but then smiled and continued. "Try to think about it yourself. I bet even though I'm on your side today, you have thought of the name Park Jimin for more than ten times"

Well I suppose that is not wrong. But it's probably because I spend all my time with him.

Right?

"Your eyes literally shine everytime you talked about him."

I can't see my own eyes. But if that was correct, I imagined how uncomfortable Jungkook must feel.

"And you're probably already wanting to tell him everything that has happened today," he closed up his theories that are actually pretty right.

My mind opened up and I wondered if what he said was true. I started feeling guilty and looked down. I wanted to deny everything he just said but I myself, is not sure.

I don't like Park Jimin.

Do I like Park Jimin?

He let out a soft chuckle.

"You don't have to feel bad, our feelings have minds of their own." Jungkook reached his right hand out to my hair and gave it a soft caress. I stared at the ground.

"Yah, don't be all gloomy and stuff. You know what? I actually had expected things to turn out this way.."

I looked up, "What? But why?"

"Well since the first day of high school everyone, including me, had always thought that you guys were dating. But then Bangtan was formed and I got close to Jimin, from there I learnt that the both of you are actually only best friends."

I paid total attention to his words, "Then?"

"Even though you guys claimed yourself to be best friends, I've always felt that Jimin liked you. I mean like.." he paused and thought what to say before continuing "Like for real. It was kinda obvious tho."

My stomach churned at his statement. Jimin liked me?

It felt weird, but a good weird, I suppose?

"At some point I started liking you too, but I tried to respect Jimin's feelings and held myself back. But when he teased you about liking me this week, I thought that maybe my assumptions were wrong. From there, I had decided to ask you out."

He ruffled his hair before continuing. "From today though, I have learned that you guys do like each other. Well, I just.... don't want to feel like a third wheel. Especially when the other guy is a close friend of mine." I listened to his explanation without giving any response, guilt started to creep back upon hearing the last sentence of it.

Too much stuff is going on. I just got dumped by my crush who actually liked me back, then he started telling me that it was my best friend I truly liked. Worst of all, I am actually confused about it and not denying it.