♡My glow up journey♡

Sigh..

Hi people.. so I'm up to 127lbs rn... I tried to portion control with my food since I went to Pizza in, but I don't think I did that good... I was 125 before hand, so I gained about 2 pounds already.. I was at 124 almost to 123, but I'm at 127 and near where I started at in the first place.. I'm going to start exercising 2 times a day instead of one and I'm also skipping dinner tonight. I can't risk gaining any more weight.. I feel so fat and ugly and disappointed... I might end up going back to my old eating habits.. I managed to get down to 110lbs, but now I can't get back down. I used to complain about being 115, but I would do ANYTHING to get back down th that weight even though I want to lose more. I was going to skip lunch and just have dinner(i had oatmeal this morning) but my dad took me and my little sister to Pizza Inn. I hate this.. why can't I lose weight? Why can't I get my stomach how I want it?.. I can't even achieve my glow up minus my weight.. I hate how I look in general, I feel ugly without my eyelashes curled, lip gloss, or eye shadow. I hate how I look in photos, I hate how I look in all of my clothes.. I hate how chubby I look in the mirror and in my clothes.. I hate how my face isn't pretty nor my body.. I hate not being confident.. I hate hating myself...