Just Amazing

Doctor's Appointment!

#Hayley's Pov#

Yesterday was an amazing day. I just could not help but to feel depressed again when I walked back into our hotel room. I don't know but it seems to be when it quiets I cry, about life, mum, Chandler, everything. The pain sometimes gets unbearable. The heart break, the kind of acid that travels through my body, burning me on the inside and out, the thing was, it was not a nice burning. I remember getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom...

"Are you okay?" Becky and Brook asks me in unison. I look up to them and shake my head, wiping the tears away from my eyes.

"I am trying, I really am" I tell them honestly. I have been trying so hard, but sometimes it is too hard. I do not like crying, it shows weakness, well my mum always use to say that if you cry, it means you have been strong or too long. I doubt it. I need her, to share things that are happening at the moment.

"We know" Becky says sitting next to me, rubbing my back soothingly. I weakly smile to them and let them head off to get some breakfast. I reach over for my phone and unlock it, scrolling through Facebook and then Twitter.

(A/N All the twitter accounts are made up! )

'@HayleyParkers, Like seriously why would you do that! He was nothing but amazing to you and you destroyed him! You don't deserve anyone like him you slut! Go find yourself some solid ground, dig yourself a hole, jump in and die!'

I let a tear slip before I read the next one.

'@HayleyParkers, You need to lose some weight! GOSH YOU ARE SO FAT LOOK AT YOU! I hate you and so do a lot of other people, I hope you realise you are now dead to us!'

Why would these people say that? Fans? Why, what did I

ever do to them?

'Hayley Nicole Parkers, GUYS STOP! SHE IS AMAZING AND PERFECT IN EVERY SINGLE WAY! PEOPLE BREAK UP ALL THE TIME! THEY JUST HAPPENED TO BE FAMOUS!!'

The last one brings a small smile to my face before I decide to stop reading and log out. I glance over to the bathroom again and sigh. I wish I didn't do it, it is another sign of weakness. I glance to my belly when I hear it begin to rumble. I stare at my stomach and shake my head.

"No, you are not hungry, do you know what they are saying about you?" I say talking to myself. I ignore the rumbles and just continue to play games on my phones, hopeful to get my mind off things. I hear the door open and Brook and Becky walk back in. They look to me and smile and I try to smile back. Then their smiles begin to widen, what happened?

"Guess what?" Brook asks happily, bouncing over to my bed. I lift the covers over my arms to hide them from their eyes...

"What?" I ask.

"Chandler and Stephanie broke up" Becky says happily. Why would they be telling me this I don't ca-wait a minute.

"You know nothing is going to happen between us ever again right?" I ask them sadly. Even though I desperately want it too.

"Come on, yes he has been a jerk lately but he might have his reasons..." Becky mumbles on, wait is she siding with him?

"How dare you..." I say trailing off beginning to get angry at her. Was she in the same room when our fight went down? I have a feeling we were at two completely different events.

"Look at it from his side, he tells you he is in love with you just before you leave the country and you don't say it back, he asks to still be together or at least friends, denied, I would feel pretty heartbroken and angry too, that is probably what the fight was about, anger and hurt, nothing was meant in his words, I could tell" Becky says. I sigh and let the information soak in. Maybe but I am still furious with him. He so fucking has to apologies.