@jprime235 this is dedicated to you, thank you for reading and I'm thrilled you like it. Here's another chapter :)"Do you love him Ryon?." I ask her as she throws her legs over me and sits back with her book. "Richard." I say as if she doesn't know who I mean.
"Yes."
She says yes and I know she means it. I'm not surprised that I'm irritated with her answer, but I am surprised it hurt to hear her say it, even though I know she might feel something for me still.
"Can I ask why you love him." She drops her book in her lap. Her answer will tell us both of its genuine."How do I answer that?" She pulls her legs to her chest. "It's like asking why the sun rises, there's a scientific explanation to it, but the simplest thing to say is, it just does. And as long as the sun rises and sets everything is okay, it's the one thing you can be certain about. Until one day it doesn't, and your world goes to hell."
Shit.
"I'm not sure why I love him, for the moment I just do. He makes me smile and he cares, he takes the time out of each day to pursue me over and over again. It's still early, maybe I'm stupid, because I've never said It to anyone before, and here I am blurting it out to someone I shouldn't even be with." She smiles at herself
"You're not stupid, Ryon." As much as I wish I were in his shoes , I won't let her feel wrong for caring for him. She loves who she loves, or who she thinks she loves, I won't let her believe that's wrong.
"I care for you too, Tristen ." Her voice is quiet, she sounds scared. And my heart stops and sinks to my stomach.
"Don't tell me that." I breathe. "Please." I thought I loved her before, now I know that I do.
"I do." She pulls her lip in her mouth. "I just cared for him first..."
"He put in the effort I should have." I told her honestly.
" I've never had feelings for a woman, I've never even looked at one the way I do now. Even still you're the only one I've had my eyes on and it's harder every day to take them off." Her head falls into her hands.Part of me wants to believe she loves me too. But the part of me that loves her wishes she would just love Richard, if it meant I wouldn't have to see her this way.
"Can I kiss you?" I ask her. I know it's wrong, but I won't touch her again if I tell myself this is the last time , not unless she asks.
Her head rises from her palms. She nods.
Instantly my lips are on hers, and her hands are in my hair holding me in place, my heart breaks through my chest as I lay her down on her bed without breaking the kiss. Her legs wrap around my waist and I knew this was a mistake. If I had any chance of staying away from her before , I don't after this. I bite her lip and her shocked intake of breath turns me on, I pin her hands above her head and pull away, still wrapped in her legs.
Fuck.
I know she's thinking the same thing when she closes her eyes and pulls her lip back into her mouth. She doesn't release her legs until I remove my hands.
I lay beside her and she rolls over, I know I've fucked up. And she's torn. I pull her into my arms"I'm sorry."
I close my eyes, and when I feel her shake , I know she's crying, and I know she loves me.
What the fuck did I do?
I let silent tears fall from my eyes and I pull her closer. I'm not sure if I try because I know she cares or if I leave her alone, because she's made somewhat of a decision already. Is it selfish for me to want to try. Or do I give her up all together.
I know exactly what she means, I don't know why I love her, I just do.
I pray to whomever listens to people like me that she can be happy after tonight, with whomever she chooses.
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Allure
RomanceRyon Carter is a young, beautiful and well protected 18 year old freshman at John Kaymen University, Graduating from a charter high school at the Top of her class a she is one of the most promising students Kaymen Has ever seen. After living a life...