My Only Hope.. ✔ (COMPLETED)

Chapter: 18

"I am not easy, nor am I hard to get.. I am just waiting for that one, who will prove that I'm worth fighting for."

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Rezay's POV

"I am totally fucked up man !", I said while throwing the helmet on my bed, What have I done today ? I again hurt her ? How I become so mean ? She was hurt, it was written on her face and I just fucked it up. I just betrayed her & left while she was finding me like a paranoid. I am doing all this cause of my past, really ? That girl, whom I loved her so much, now she is happy with her married life and I am just making my life a big fuck. Due to my past, due to my insecurities, due to my fears, now someone is suffering, she is suffering, Fatima is suffering. How could I do this to her? I hurt her, now what should I do?

Maybe I should say sorry to her, but --- for what ? She would gonna ask me that why I am saying sorry and then what would I tell her? I am sorry because I ran away cause my life is so fucked up that I don't even know what to do that's why I ran away. She should not love me like this, I am afraid, I am not worth it. 

I started walking forth and back, back and forth like she was running before, in the whole mall, for me. She was hurting herself like this for me and what have I done, 'Rezay.... you should die. You have no right to live, You fucking bastard', I threw my phone on the floor and went outside. I went outside and started smoking and taking deep deep breaths to make myself cool but it didn't work until I talk to her I won't feel good.

I again went inside my home & quickly went to my room, saw my cell phone on the floor, Thank God ! it is still alive, I thought while placing the battery and turned it on, when the light came, I know its alive and fine, then I quickly started typing a text,

"Tell me, when you get home."  

and sent it to Fatima. No reply came, where is she now ? I quickly checked time on phone and asked my self, 'Its 4.00 pm now, where is she?'

I again typed,

"Give me a miscall or text me when you come home." 

Again no reply, its weird, Is she with that fucking guy ? Still ? Who was that guy? She didn't tell me before about him, I bet he was fucking dying to touch her again and again and I was just watching, I am a jerk, I should have killed him. 

'Listen you ! You guys, you don't have a fucking right to touch my girl, yeah she is mine, only mine, she loves me and I fucking love her.' 

I said to myself proudly, Yeah, I accept that, I love her and I am gonna tell her that I love her too, I will tell her. But I am just waiting for the right time. I have been an asshole but not anymore, I would tell her soon and I know she loves me too.

I quickly logged on to facebook and started searching any sign for her, but neither she was online nor any last seen since last 2 days and 14 hours. Where is she ?