My Only Hope.. ✔ (COMPLETED)

One Year Before(Part 1) Chapter: 35

"I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever." ― Rabindranath Tagore.

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Tani's POV

"Faiz, please be calm, I'll meet you after a while." I said while stepping out of the room which was not of so much use cause he again pulled me inside and while holding me by his side, he asked what I thought is, angrily?

"Why? where are you going?"

"You know better than anyone in this room that where I'm going, I'm going to meet the only person of my life who is in this fucking hospital and who is in that condition because of me."

"It was not your fault Tani." huh?

"Really? and how can you be so sure about that?" Faiz dropped his gaze to the floor and left my arm.

"Okay, you can go." Yeah, As if I was asking for his permission to meet him.

"I never asked for your permission, Faiz." I spat at him and again his eyes turned to dark one but he quickly covered them and gestured me to go ahead and I shrugged carelessly.

After fighting with my inner self more, I started taking steps towards his room. Every scene of last year came to my mind as a flashback and I couldn't hold my tears anymore and quickly turning into the corner, I bursted out crying.

"Ya Allah! Please forgive me for whatever happened in that year, you know it was not my fault, I didn't intentionally do those all things, I didn't. Everything was out of my control, you know that, but why didn't you control those things, why did you let him suffer? Why did you let Sami suffer a lot? It was not his fault. It was not." I said to Allah while crying.

Everything came in my mind, Rezay, my friends, my parents, Sami, my engagement day, letter, that kidnapper or murderer and then ------- blood, lots of blood and then I had been kicked out of my own home whether they say or not but I knew somewhere deep down in me, that they thought and still thinks that I'm guilty, I'm the only reason behind all those happenings, although it was not in my control. But it's true, Sami loved me, tried to marry me and that's why he suffered and still suffering. After that day, one thing seemed clear to me, whoever he is, he don't wanna see me happy and that's why he don't want me to marry anyone and if I'd try, he'd kill that person.

"But why not me? why can't he just kill me and get away from me?" I asked loudly while crying.

But I should meet him, it has been one year since I last saw him, since I last met him, I can't leave him like this anymore when he needed me the most, I should stay with him, here, forever, he is my best friend and there is not doubt in that, that I love him. I love him more than myself, he was the only one to listen me, understand me, when no one was there for me, when everyone was blaming me, he was there with me, for me and then when all this happened my parents never gave me another chance to meet him, but today? Today, I have a chance, I have a chance and I'd never listen to anyone anymore that what should I do in my life or what should I not. Everyone has lost their right in my life, if they can't believe me, can't listen to me, then they should leave me alone. I know behind Sami's condition, I am responsible, I should have refused his proposal, but had I known that before? Was it in my hand? So why blame me? why? But that's true whatever that sinner did, he did it for me, he did it so that I can never think about to marry anyone and if everyone is blaming me and if I'm truly responsible then I'll make it right with the help of my ALLAH. Inshaa Allah.