Sight Singing

Chapter 29

I know I've been awful and don't deserve anyone who's made it this far but I promise this one will be worth it if you're here ;)

Oh, and thank you if you're still reading, it means so much more than I can say. This one's dedicated to @IAmATeaRex for the vote of confidence :)

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Chapter 29

As soon as I had changed my clothes and brushed my teeth, I rushed to my door and managed to grab my handle before realising how fast I had just got ready for bed. Zach probably wouldn't have even found his pyjamas yet so I started counting down from a hundred, reaching eighty-four before deciding to just open the door. When I saw Zach on the other side with his hand in the air, looking like he was about to knock, I couldn't help but smile.

"So you aren't sleeping alone after all?" I smirked.

"What? Who said anything about sleeping? I'm just here to pick up my book. I left it next to your bed," he whispered as I tried to control my embarrassment.

He walked past me but before I had a chance to turn around and look for his book, I was in the air with his hand over my mouth to make sure I didn't scream and wake the whole house up. He walked into his room and kicked the door shut behind him as I grabbed his shoulder, wide-eyed. He turned the light off and as he tried to find the bed, I took the moment to process the shock and get over it before deciding to appreciate the scent of the shirt my face was close to being buried in.

Suddenly I felt a jolt and realised that Zach had found the bed less gracefully than he had probably planned on, as I was twisted around in his fall, crashing into the mattress and bouncing back up as I heard a thud.

"Ouch," he whispered and I reached over to his table, grabbed his phone and turned on the torch.

"What happened!? Why didn't you just turn the torch on you moron? Where did it hit? Let me see your head," I ordered as I saw his hand pressing down on his skull.

He leaned forward as I shone a light on the spot that had hit the wall, thankfully not finding any blood. It was at that moment that I realised I was sat on his lap and his arm was still around my waist and my hand was still on his shoulder and as he moved his head back again, I froze, not knowing how to move or where to move to.

Our eyes met as I felt his hand on mine, moving the light away from his face, until he could see without squinting and I tried to will myself to move but I guess my muscles knew what I wanted too well because they didn't move a single millimetre. I grew conscious of how wildly fast my heart was beating, dropped the phone onto the bed and moved my hand to my heart to make sure it stayed inside and decided I had no explanation left in me as to why I just couldn't look anywhere other than... Zach. I decided I wasn't going to try and move away from him anymore until he made it clear that he didn't want me that close to him because he might not want it but I couldn't think of a place I'd felt safer or happier than in his arms.

I was just so tired of fighting whatever it was that was going on and if what it was, was a serious crush on my roommate and partner then that was fine by me and if it was more than that then even that was fine by me. And that's when I realised that it was even more than that.

It was in that moment that I decided that I had been protecting myself all wrong.

As one of his hands found its way to my neck and he brushed his thumb against the side of my face, I thought about just going with it. I cared about him so much and even though I was not about to tell him that, I really could not think of one good reason why I should be the one to move away.

I looked down and closed my eyes to just think for a minute without my judgement being swayed by his eyes, and it dawned on me that after everything that had just happened with his sister, maybe he just wanted to get his mind off it. Or maybe even if he did want this, he would think that I was just doing it to make me feel better, not because I really wanted to.