What Happened To me

Chapter 19

Chapter 19-

I woke up early. It was about 4 am. I was with Niall on the couch. He looks like a little duck when he sleeps. I got up and walked to the kitchen. I found a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote a little note.

Dear friends,

Hey guys. I’m fine I promise. Thank you so much for taking care of me yesterday. I didn’t mean to fuck things up. I’m sorry. I just need to be alone for a little bit. I’ll be back later. I love you all. Please don’t come look for me. I’ll be okay.

                        -Jodi xx 4:15am

With that I put it on the door and left. I left my phone in plain sight, so they wouldn’t call me. I walked out and into the freezing air. Damn I wish I had a jacket. I’m such a dumb fuck. I just kept walking. I was soon lost. Oh well, at least that meant more time to think and more time to be alone. I found $5 in my pocket. I needed something quick. I stopped in a drug store. I needed a weed. I got a pack and took one out. Was I really going to do this? No. I shoved it back and spent the rest of my money on a shitty black jacket. At this point I had no fucking clue where I was. It was almost 11am. Sabrina and the boys probably where freaking out. I went to and entry of an ally and sat on the curb. I put my hood up and my hands in my pockets. I slowly opened the box and pulled out the same stick. I’m ready now. I lit the stick and took a deep breath. I put the butt in my mouth and smoked it. Hm. Not bad. As people drove by me they gave me weird looks. I could have sworn I saw Max drove by. One car slowed down and stopped in front of me.

“Hey your way to pretty and in shape to be smoking.” The man yelled at me.

“Yeah so what. You don’t know my life. I have a fucked up life right now and I need to calm down.” I said rudely and didn’t look at him.

“Well let me guess. You kind of cheated on your longtime boyfriend with a guy you really liked and he broke up with you and just left you in a building crying. Then you couldn’t take the shit so you left your friends a note saying that you would be back soon but it has been 7 hours and you got lost. And you had to just give up trying.” How did he know? What the hell? I slowly looked up in amazement that he knew what had happened. Niall.

“What the hell Niall! I told you not to look for me!” I yelled at him. He hopped out of the car and came over to me. He grabbed the rest of the cigarette I had and smashed it into the ground.

“Eww. How can you stand that?” He asked crinkling his nose. He took his hands out of his pocket and unwrapped a breath mint. He slowly fed it to me.

“Why couldn’t you just leave me alone?” I asked the Irish boy.

“Jodi I just couldn’t stand the thought of you being gone. Especially for 7 hours.” He escorted me to the van

“I was going to come back. I really was. I just…”

“Got lost? I know.” We sat there for a bit in silence, when his phone rang.

            Yeah I want you to rock me, rock me, rock me, yeah I want you to hit the peddle heavy medal… and he answered.

“Hello?...Yeah I found her… we should be home soon…okay bye.”

“Who was that?”

“The boys and Sabrina. They were worried sick.” I just nodded. He noticed that my breath mint was gone he stared at my mouth, just waiting. All at once he mashed his lips onto mine and pushed my hood off. Putting his hands on my cheek and neck.