Imprinted (twilight fanfic)

perfect

kim~

i started to gag as i slid my fingers down my throat once again, how many times am i going to do this? how many times will i have to do this in order to be perfect? i started to gag as the puke made it's way up my throat and into the toilet that i was currently bent over "uhh" i said while letting go of the edges that i was gripping so tightly and i fell onto my side as i hit the floor in exhaustion, i groaned again as i held onto my aching stomach, i felt the dizziness come over me as everything faded black and i was out.

jake~

i'm not sure how many beers i've drunk but did it really matter? it was taking my mind off things so i shouldn't be worried about it, i grabbed the big bottle of vodka and started downing it, i felt my body slowly slump as i tipped my head back. i was on the ground holding myself up with my hands..sort of i was almost to the point of passing out and i was looking forward to it i was tired as hell and i wanted to go to sleep which i found is incredibly easy to do if i'm wasted, i tried to get up but it wasn't as easy i just started to fall forward, i put my hands out in front of me but in order to do that i had to drop the drink which i wasn't to fond of doing so instead of stopping myself i just let my body carelessly hit the floor, i laid there in a fit of giggles as i brought the rim of the bottle to my lips and tipped it back "jacob" i heard the low voice of my father say, i looked up but he wasn't there it was just a blurry man "wh-who are.... you?" i said in a drunken slur "jake stop this" i blurry man said while snatching the bottle from my hand, i could hear something being poured out and that's when i realized he was dumping the liquor out "h-hey!" i complained while trying to get up again to stop him but it was too late the last of the liquor drained down the sink, i tried to focus on the man who had stolen the only thing i wanted right now "oh..oh you look just l-like my dad..his name is b-billy" i said while giggling as if i were a two year old "i am billy jacob and you are drunk" he said while throwing the bottle away "well am i jacob or am i drunk? cause you're..you, you are confusing me" he stood there with his arms crossed staring down at me, i looked back and forth and then back at him "what are you staring at?" i asked while pointing at him "jake stop this now! all you have been doing lately is getting wasted and i am sick of it you're going to hurt yourself!" i shook my head and tried to get up but fell back onto my ass when i saw him stomping towards me. he grabbed my arm and yanked me up onto my feet "owwww" i whined even though it didn't really hurt "stop" he said in a stern voice, i looked at him for a minute and then i started i gave him the puppy eyes before letting my eyes start to water and my bottom lip started to quiver as i pretended to be hurt "why did you do that?" i said in a small sob "jake that's enough!" i sucked it up and straightened up so that i was standing nice and tall "i don't have to listen to you" i said while poking his chest with my index finger "i am second in command you you...you are just an old man and no one likes you....so fuck off" i said with a smile as i spun around getting ready to leave when all the sudden i lost my balance and fell and that's the last thing i remember

:two days later:

embry~

me paul and jared were all were all hanging out after patrols and we have had a few beers not enough to get us to drunk just a little loopy "man i am so fucking tired" i said while opening the door to the fridge in search of food "you guys have like..no food" i said while staring the the almost bare shelves "yeah we eat out a lot" jared said while reaching in front of me and grabbing another beer from the fridge "good thing kim makes herself puke after" i just about dropped the container of leftovers that i had in my hand, puke was looking at him just as shocked as i was "what?" i said while shutting the door and walking over to where he was standing "she makes herself vomit almost every time we eat, she thinks i don't know" i looked up at paul with wide eyes "and do you do anything about this?" i asked "yeah and for awhile i thought we had it under control..maybe we did but it always finds it's way back to us" he explained "and i try and stop her but everytime i try she breaks down and cries for three hours straight" i could not believing what he was saying i mean if you looked at kim you would never guess that she was sick she's always cheerful and loving..it's scary what a smile can hide "jare bro you gotta get her her help..why is she even doing it there is nothing wrong with her body" he shrugged "she told me that she was bullied when she went to school. and that the stupid bitches called her fat and ugly and a whore" paul shook his head "but we went to school with kim i never saw he get bullied" he said "i know...i guess i just didn't pay enough attention" jared said in a low tone "we have to do something about this" paul and jared both nodded.

kim~

"bella ware is my jacket?" i yelled from the bedroom "check on the bed" i turned and started looking through the bedding. i grabbed my green hoodie and quickly put it on i had half an hour to get home i had planned on making jared dinner tonight but first i had to get some groceries since we haven't been shopping in about a week i'm not sure exactly why we use to cook a lot but for the past week we have been too lazy to even go to the store "hey bells i have to go" she looked at me with a pouty face "okay call me later? and be safe" i nodded "of course" she puckered her lips about and i quickly bent down next to her and gave her a kiss on the cheek and she did the same to me "love you don't forget to call" she said as i walked out the door into the drizzling rain, i pulled my hoodie up and made a run for the car, i pulled into the driveway and grabbed the two paper bags out of the passenger seat and started walking inside and i was shocked when i saw jared lying on the floor groaning "aww jared" i whined while kicking the door shut with my foot, i set the bags on the table and then walked over to him, i knelt down beside him and placed a hand on his chest "kim" he whispered with half shut eyes, well there goes dinner

bella~

i could hear the door opening and i was guessing it was embry, i stood up to meet him at the door but stopped when i saw paul and embry walking through the door "embry...are you drunk?"i asked as they stumbled into the room, great something tells me this is not going to turn out good

PLEASE READ THIS THERE IS STUFF I NEED TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY WRITING okay before we start this chapter there is lots of drunkenness and there is also a part that i will continue to write about but it's not a very pleasant thing in this chapter you are introduced with kim's secret that she is starving herself and when she does it she doesn't keep it down so kim has bulimia which is a serious disorder and there are over three million cases are per a year in the u.s alone and not everyone survives it if you or someone you know has it please don't hide it get help it's no joke you can be beautiful without suffering so get help or get someone help, enjoy the chapter i know that it's short but deal with it lol and i am also starting school in a few weeks and i have been home schooled and i have done online schooling my whole life and for me to be able to start school is major and i know you guys are like ruth what the fuck is wrong with you why are you excited but if you have lived in the middle of no wares for your whole life and this past year moved to the city and you are able to start school and make friends that is just amazing and i have an anxiety disorder and i start to bounce or sway back and forth and i'm claustrophobic and i start to stutter and then i panic and at first i was doing that when i got there but when i talked to the teacher he made me feel so comfortable and made it seem okay so i am excited and i will be able to study for the job i want soon which is a therapist i want to be able to help people who have gone through what i have gone through and help them realize that there life is not over you know those days where you feel worthless and depressed and you just want to fall asleep and never wake up? well there are people who go through that everyday and sometimes they act on those thoughts and i would like to help people who think of themselves like that so i am so so happy to be able to start school and you all know i want to be a write, but anyways till next time love~ruth xoxoxoxoxox