Another Run Away

Only an animal if you want me to be

I always had a fear of not being good enough and I suppose harry brings out my fear, honestly i cannot comprehend with all of this right now and I wish I was back at home with Luke and amber, I wish I hadn't lied to my dad and out of all the things I wish - I wish I had never met the cocky asshole I am stuck with right now.
He just makes me want to punch a brick wall not in the 'I love him and sexual tension' but his presence makes me grit my  teeth and kick him but I can't. well I could.

More like shouldn't, I really want to get closer to bailey he could be such an amazing friend. Yes; friend. I know, I know, I know I've thought about him in more context anyhow nice it would be for me to kiss him but I don't want to start of a relationship based on a lie, I don't I really don't. but for now Ill see how it goes and give it time, A lot of time.

But the thing is right now. At this very moment in time I do not want to go near him because I'm cold and alone in his apartment, too annoyed to be grateful that I am in his apartment rather than outside in the cold.

I walk past him and sit on the carpet in his room.

"You know you can fit on the bed if you want" he offers before lying face down onto his bed.

"No, it's rude, plus I don't know what things you do on your bed. "

"I think you would" he muffles through the pillow before raising his head slightly and giving me a wink.

"Oh um okay" I awkwardly cough

"Please trinity don't tell me that you think i am some sort of animal that sleeps on unclean sheets?"

"I never sai-"

"Your lack of an excuse tells me all I need to know." he laughs, "and as a  matter-of-fact I am only an animal if you want me to be." he responds sarcastically. 

 "So are you sure that there is no way we can use the elevator." I say as I try to change the subject so hopefully my cheeks will return to their normal pale colour. 

"I know that isn't what you want to ask." He replied rolling over to face me on the side.

"Yes it is"

"I know it wasn't what you wanted to ask me." He states bluntly

"You seem to know a lot of things." I say absentmindedly.

"Mmmm I know that you cannot say things under your breath, you're too loud."

"Shut up" I reply slightly embarrassed

"Don't say things you don't want to happen. I know you want me to keep talking, I mean who wouldn't"

"Maybe I should've stayed out side your room your ego is swishing me."

"At least I have one, where's your ego trin? Where's your reputation?"

"I have a reputation, thank you very much." I reply feeling slightly offended.

"Yeah, but for all the wrong reasons." He sighed.

I stood up abruptly and walked over to his bed

. "What do you know Harry? Who were you to me?" The thing he couldn't understand is that I wasn't asking because I was just curious but I know for such a mutual hatred to be shared amoung two strangers the thing I did must have been dire and that too scared me.

"I'm no one to you."

"Were you ever someone to me, my family, my friends?"

"I'm no one to you he repeated turning over onto his side so he would face away from me."

"I can't believe you, you honestly cannot do this right now, we were about to have a break through."

"With what, were not friends, after this year you are nothing to me." Well that hurt a little but I think it'll hurt worse tomorrow when I think of all the stupid things I did in the past day and don't know how to fix them because it'll be too late.

"So what am I now to you?"

"Someone that's razzing my roommate."

"Razz?" I questioned.

"Getting in with." He replied saying each word one by one as if I didn't understand.

"you sound like it is a highschool fling."

"You are in highschool remember?"

"Oh," I sighed "It feels like I'm older than that, your in highschool too!"

"Yeah but that's different?" he said bluntly.

"How?"

"It just is."

As if by some story book magic the lights turned back on and the elevator dinged. I quickly stood up and paced over to my phone to once again check the time.

11.00

"That's not good, it'll be bailey." I murmured to myself.

"You know it'll look like we had sex if your skirt is that high." He said standing n his door frame smirking.

"I was sitting on the carpet." I said but I could already feel the heat coming to my cheeks, it always happened when I was embarrassed.

"Pretend your asleep" I told him.

"Nah that'll ruin the game." He smirked once again.

"What game?"

The doors to the elevator finally opened and bailey emerged looking awfully wet and confused.

"Good to see you Bailey, lucky you weren't here an hour before because things got kinda heated."

Heated alright, a flame powered by anger not lust, that jerk.

Time to beat him at his own game.