The Locker Room •• Ashton Irwin ••

38.

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Months. It has been months since I broke up with Ashton. My eighteenth birthday was okay with the twins and Calum and Michael were also there. It was fun but I really missed Ashton. Especially since he gave an envelope and a present to tweedledum and tweedledee to give to me. It was sweet. A bouquet and one false flower but that didn't make it easier, in the letter stood the very cheesy I will love you till the last flower dies. I'd want it to die. That way I don't have to think about him.
At the end of this week is graduation. That way Ashton will be far away and I won't have to see again. My life will go back to how it was, since I already loved him before we were together. But no. I don't just love him. I'm in love with him. Those hazel eyes and the dimpled smile. His muscles he got from playing football every day. He never even missed a game. Not even when we got together. It's amazing how much he loves that sport and he still had time to be with me and with his family. And the way he makes everyone fall in love with him.  With just a single glance.
I loved him. I still do.
I love him.
I love him.
I love him.
And I don't think I'll ever be able to change that. He just won't get out of my head but I'll be alright. I can pull through. One day I may find someone else to share memories with. Kissing in the rain. Cuddling after kissing in the rain because we got so cold. Drinking tea or hot cocoa when he stands in front of my house soaked. Or drinking Gatorade after he won a match.
Eliza stop! These were all memories I made with Ashton. I was supposed to forget him. Not search for memories. I felt the tears slip down my face. This isn't how it was supposed to be.

"Maybe it is because you haven't really said goodbye to him?" Izzy said on the phone. "You just threw the stuff at him told him it's over and walked away."
"Because that was the easiest Izz. I couldn't be around him for much longer, you know that."
"Yea you wanted to save a heartbreak by breaking your own. Well done on the stupidest plan in the world."
"You were supposed to help me! Not bring me down!" I yelled over the phone.
"So you need help. You could've said that earlier." Stupid sassy people. "What if we go shopping buy you nice clothes and we're going to his graduation. That way you can say goodbye. It'll be good for the both of you."
"Okay."
"Wait, okay? You just said yes? I thought I had to push you more. Well I'll see you in 15 be ready." She hung up when I realized I was still in my pajamas. That will be speed dressing.

We've been in the store for two hours and I still hadn't found nice clothes 'cause for once I wanted to wear a dress. It's the funeral of my love so better dress like it right.
I walked over to a new rack and found what I've been looking for. A nice black skater dress with lace. "Izz?" I said. She turned around and the only thing she could do was nod.
I went to fit it (good enough but Izz said perfect.) and when I stepped out of the confined room I stood still, shocked. Izzy saw what I was looking at and she pushed me to the register. "I'll distract them. You buy the dress. I'll see you at the car." I did as she said and quickly paid for the dress. I was gone before I was seen. Luckily. I reached the car and soon enough Izzy came running and we stepped in the car. "Plan succeeded." We high fived and she brought me home.
"Thanks for today Izz. I needed it." I said to her.
"No thanks." She had a smug look on her face but I wasn't planning on asking about it. I just turned around and walked into my house.
I walked upstairs with a cup of tea and laid the dress on my bed. Already laying the make up out and making everything ready. Tomorrow I had a free day for the graduation so we could go look at friends and family. The twins promised to go with me so I wouldn't be alone. How did I ever deserve those two.

The first thing I did when I woke up was take a shower, longer than usual. I needed it to relieve the stress. I didn't really want to speak to Ashton today but I was still nervous. I got out of the shower and dried before putting on my underwear. Can't go anywhere without them. I slipped in my dress and started on my make up. Just simple mascara and eyeliner. While dry blowing my hair I got a text.
We'll be there in half an hour - Lukey
I quickly let my hair in their normal static curls and clipped the front locks to the back. I looked into the mirror. If I had ever looked this good at school maybe I'd have had more boyfriends. Who am I kidding. I only ever had eyes for Ashton. I had plain green/blue eyes and he had those mesmerizing hazel ones that made me blush every time he caught me staring. Or when I caught him now I think of it. Why haven't we gotten together any sooner. Why was it always so hard to admit we needed each other. But I'm stronger now.

I heard a knock on the door and opened it. "Hey guys." I said and I saw they were also a little dressed up. "Welcome to the funeral of my love."

Hey guys.
Sorry it took me so long and I hope you guys are happy with the chapter. Sorry it's so short but I needed it over with.
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