The Real Love Story

TRLS 13

The girl who used to care about everything and everyone, turned into a girl who never cared at all.

"S-Spencer..." 

During my teenager life, that name used to brought happiness in my being just by hearing it. But, it now brought unmeasurable pain in my whole system. Suddenly, breathing seems to impossible for me. 

"Shannon," The way he calls my cousin's name just made me tremble. It was calm yet, empty. 

"U-Uh! Hi! Nakabalik ka na pala?" Medyo ilang na sagot sa kanya ni Shannon while I'm still turning my back on them. Stupid, I thought. Sharmaine's here. Of course, he's here. 

"Shannon, let's go." I spoke before he could ever answer her. I know he's going to say it anyway so why would I bother wait for him to utter it? I faced them. "Nawalan na ako ng gana.." Pagpapatuloy ko as I stared blankly at him. 

"S-Scarlette..." Halos magkasabay na sambit nila sa pangalan ko at naiyukom ko naman ang kamao ko. 

"Shan, can I talk to her for a minute?" 

"NO." I answered at hinawakan si Shannon sa kamay para umalis. 

"Shan, please?" He stopped us midway at huminto naman si Shannon. I tightened my grip at her pero bumuntong hininga lang siya at nginitian ako. 

"You need to talk, right? Go on." Mahinang bulong niya sa akin at pasimple naman akong umiling. No, please, take me with you. Pero hindi niya yata nakuha yun at binitawan lang ako atsaka walang lingon lingong lumabas ng Restau.

"Scarlette." Napapikit ako sa paraan ng pagtawag niya sa pangalan ko. 

"What now, Spencer?" Sagot ko sa kanya at buong tapang na sinalubong ang mga titig niya kahit sa loob loob ko ay gustong gusto ko ng tumakbo. 

He looked at me. No, he's staring at me. He didn't utter a single word and he just keep on staring at me, looking for something I cannot pin point. In a matter of seconds, he took one stepped closer and pulled me into a hug. Right here, right now, I know I'm damned. 

"I've missed you." I heard him whisper sa kabila ng pagpupumiglas ko. "I've missed you so much." 

With my full force, I finally able to free myself from him. He looked lost and hurt.

"C-Carleey..." 

Without a single word, I slapped him. Hard. 

"H-How dare you.." Nanginginig kong sambit sa kanya. "How dare you come back! How dare you say those words from me like you really mean it!" Sigaw ko at laking pasasalamat ko na nasa may sulok pa lang kami ng Restau. 

"Carleey, I mean it." Madiin niyang sabi at umiling naman ako. "Magpapaliwanag ako, p-please. Hear me out." Pagsusumamo niya sa akin at awtomatik na namuo ang luha sa mga mata ko. 

"Bakit ba kayo ganyan?" Natatawa kong tanong sa kanya. "Bakit ang dali dali lang sa inyong saktan ako? Bakit ba ang dali dali lang sa inyong iwan ako? Ganun ba ako ka w-walang kwenta sa inyo?" Pagtatanong ko pa ulit at ramdam ko na kung paanong tumulo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Kakaalis ko pa nga lang sa lungga ko para sana magsaya pero agad namang may problema.

"C-Carleey... h-hindi sa ganun. M-Magpapaliwanag a-ako please." 

I wiped my tears away. "Kasabay mo siyang umuwi diba?" Tanong ko at umiwas naman siya ng tingin. Napatawa ako. "You've been here for two months already, ngayon mo lang naisipang magpaliwanag? Putang ina, Spencer!" Sigaw ko regardless of the possibility na baka may makarinig sa amin dito. 

"Mag-usap tayo p-please. W-Wag dito." 

Ngumiti ako at kalaunay umiling. "Tama na, Spencer. You already fucked me up way too much to believe in whatever shits you are going to say. Kung gusto mong magpaliwanag ay sana noon mo pa ginawa. But you didn't. Putang ina niyo sa pag-iisip na pwede niyo 'kong iwan at balikan hanggang sa kailan niyo gusto. Stop looking at me with the same tenderness in your eyes because I am going to buy it no more. Stop talking shits like you missed me because it's been a long while since I've heard anything from you. Can't you see? I'm not the same girl you guys have broke, almost 4 years ago."