When I got home, I went straight up to my room, ignoring my parents questions about my time in the fields. I couldn't lie to them. Especially with everything that was on my mind. Was it a good think or a bad thing that Jesse was a Flunkie? I loved him deeply and I would never tell anyone, but is this going to affect our relationship? Which one of the D's does he have? Will it give our relationship boudaries? What if he has a disease like cancer? Would it be a waste of time to love him if there's a possibility we might both end up dead tomorrow? I was so confused. I wanted to just curl up in a ball and cry. I wanted to stay in my room forever, but that would mean being away from Jesse longer. I wanted my life to be less complicated. I wanted to be normal.
No, I am normal. My disorder doesn't make me abnormal. I am an individual. I deserve to be able to love. My life is normal. It just has some bumps in the road. Alot of bumps. But I am lucky I can still love Jesse, I am lucky to have a family who loves me and to be alive. That is what i am thankfull for. That after 16 years the Hidden haven't found me, and that they haven't found Jesse either.
I am so sick of those freaking Hidden. I want to persecute one of them! See how they like it! UGG! I hate them so much! I mean what kind of sensless, heartless person would want to have a job going around killing people than aren't "normal". I mean it's just so dumb! Scew overpopulation and let people have the right to live! WE ARE NOT FREAKS! We have rights! We deserve freedom!
