Two days have passed since charming came by and tomorrow was the day I tell charming my decision, that hasn't been made yet. He does have a point, Dean is a bad person, even if he was good at the beginning but I couldn't do that to my child, she or her will need their father even if I had to see him it would be for the child only.
An abrupt knock suddenly shakes me out of my thoughts. "Come in,"
"Tara, Dean wants to see you" Rose says and her head pops in.
"Do I really have to?" I groan looking pleadingly at her. She nods and closes the door as I roll my eyes and get up to wear something with more coverage than pajama shorts and a tank top. I open my closet and see it full with gowns, no shorts, and no jeans of any sorts. I pick a purple dress with lace on top and a cutout back. I head out of the room without bothering to look in the mirror and go directly to the fountain knowing he would be there. I catch a glimpse of him sitting by the fountain fiddling with his cuffs. Does he seem...nervous?
"Hey dean!" I call out and walk to him. He looks up with sad eyes.
"Hey" he murmurs but then walks to me and continues, "Look, I'm really sorry about everything I did ok? I just did it because I was angry and I was stupid and I have anger management issues, just please forgive me. Don't you want a healthy family with love and hope? I can give you that I promise" he says reaches out to touch my cheek but I step back.
"Dean, what you did isn't exactly something that could be easily forgivable and I did believe that there was good in you maybe I still do but just a bit. But you want a happy family? With me? Because I don't know if I can offer that specially with you, and you got me pregnant by rapping me! Rapping! Besides I can't even fucking look at you" I hiss the last part but I see the hurt in his eyes before I turn my face looking at the ground.
"Please forgive me, I'm so so sorry. I can't breathe or function without knowing whether you will forgive me or not" he says and steps even closer while I just stand my ground.
"I don't want to forgive you, at least not today" I shrug and walk to the fountain running my hand along the water.
"As long as I know you eventually will, I'll be fine" he says and stands beside me.
"If I ask u something will you tell me the answer honestly?" I ask and look up to him.
"Of course, ask away" he looks down and grins.
"Who is harry?" I ask quietly.
"Why do you ask?" he asks with a hard face and clenched fists. Dude Chill.
"Wondering" I shrug simply.
"He is a bad guy, who killed the last relatives you had. He broke your hear and sold you out to a very very bad guy. He will never be trusted ever again, he was a high rank demon but he went against us so he is a mere pile of trash now. He was with you the night you, um, first got raped; he paid the guy to do it. So stay away of anybody named Harry" he said and turned to enter back in leaving me agape and taking in all this. How come? The Harry in my flashbacks wasn't a bad guy and I thought dean was pure evil. He was trying to protect me from harry even though he raped me, harry was worse.
I leave and go back to my room still astounded by what I just heard and see that Rose was sitting on my bed.
"Rose?" I ask as I sit beside her.
"Look Tara, I-I didn't mean to eavesdrop but I heard everything and it's not true"
"How would you know?" I ask confused.
"I have met him and he isn't a bad guy. He is with charming, he is against Dean," she says.
"Ugh, what is this? I don't know what to do I was considering to go with charming but now that I know that this guy, Harry, is with him I-I don't know..." I say while I pace around the room with frustration.
"Charming asked you to join him?" she asks bewildered.
"Yeah" I whisper and look at her and ask her "should I?"
"It's your decision but why are you still here? After all what happened"
"One of the reasons is you, through all this you stayed by my side, yes maybe I had a friend that I forgot about but you are all I need now. And I don't want my kid to grow up without a father, not like me" I whispered the last part as Rose hugged me tightly.
"Do what you think is right and for once think for yourself and not for others ok?" she mumbles into my neck as I just nod.
"Just think about what charming said, ok? I'm going to go make lunch" she says and leaves while I just sit on the bed and my mind is clouded with pros and cons.
I don't know whom to trust anymore because of all the lies I've been hearing, maybe I can only trust rose.
