I've been awake all night and didn't get a drop of sleep, just stayed up rethinking my decision over and over again to make sure I'm doing the right thing.
I can't believe I'm doing this.
I got out of bed and went out of my room looking for rose until I spotted Dean walking through the hallway. I got anxious and head behind a door and hoped that he wouldn't notice me. He kept on walking as I heard loud stumps. Phew, that was close; I don't want to talk to him right now.
I walked faster just in case I don't run into him again, I went into the kitchen and tried to spot her but she was nowhere to be found. So I decided to ask the people who also worked there.
"Um, excuse me" I tapped on a guy's shoulder that was cutting up carrots.
"What?" he replied without looking at me.
"Do you know where rose is?"
"Look outside" he huffed still not caring that someone was talking to him. I went out of the kitchens backdoor that led directly to the garden, and I saw her watering roses.
"Rose watering roses eh?" I asked walking up to her with a smile.
"Yup, what are you doing up at 7?" she asked.
"Well I never woke up because I never slept last night, I just couldn't" I say shrugging and walked up closer to the roses.
"I get that, it's fine to be overwhelmed especially with everything going on" and gave me hose to water the flowers and I thanked her.
"Did you decide what you are going to tell charming today?" she added.
"Yeah I did and I really think it's for the best"
"You are not going to tell me aren't you?" she smiled and gave me a hip bump playfully.
"No way, not until I tell charming" I say and repeat her actions.
"You are going aren't you?" I turn around to see who spoke.
"Dean?" I ask and stand still for a moment.
"You are going to leave? And take our baby with you? And who the hell is charming?" he asks and comes closer with every word
"Dean please just hear me out, and can we go somewhere more private to talk about this I don't want anybody else to hear this ok?" I tell him and give Rose a look of sympathy, and she nods her head understanding and takes the water hose and goes away.
"Well I'm reconstructing the place, so the only available rooms are my office, and the bedrooms only."
"Oh, let's go to the office then" I say and walk to him and ask him to lead the way. He starts walking and I follow him into the palace going through the giant hallways till we reach his office where guards open the door for us and I thank them.
"You don't have to thank them, it's their job after all" he says and stands by his disk.
"I know but it's nice to thank people" I say and he just nods his head.
"And it's nice to tell the father of you're baby that you are taking it away from him" he says and crosses his arms.
"Look Dean I'm sorry I didn't tell you before ahead what was going on, but you need to understand what you did is wrong." I saw and stand right in front of him.
"I know that but still you didn't have the right to hide this all, and who is this charming guy? Is that even a real name?"
"No it's not a real name because I don't know his name, and he is this guy I met at the ball when I first came here" I say hoping he won't question me more about him, but I know that won't happen.
"Wait he asked him you to go with him and you only met once?" he asks frowning.
"Well... not exactly, you remember the night I left the palace? I went to a bakery with roe and he works there. I didn't know he worked there until that night and we just hit it on. And he might have came here a bunch of times" I say wishing silently he won't snap at me or snap my neck all at once even though I wanted that to happen right now.
"He was in my home?! How can you let him do that? And how could you trust him so easily? He might be a murderer for all you know and you do not know his fucking name" he says enraged and towering over me.
"I didn't have the right to let him here but you don't tell me about trust because I thought you were a good guy and I trusted you! For all I would know you could have been a raper!" I sass him back and I could see that made him angrier but I also a bit of guilt in his eyes.
"I want to meet him," he says with a dominating voice.
"No" I say standing my ground.
"I said I want to meet him" he repeats and comes closer to try and intimidate me.
"No you don't have to, why do you want to meet him?"
"I want to see the guy who you fell for, and the guy who will raise my child if you are truly leaving because I can't make you stay" he says and raises his eyebrow expecting me to say yes.
"I don't want you to meet him because it won't matter or make a difference"
"Why the fuck do you like to piss me off?! I just want to meet him! I'm not going to kill him!" he flips out and starts pacing behind the desk gripping his hair from frustration.
"It won't make a difference Dean! And stop fucking shouting, ok?! God, you are so over dramatic, and what if I'm leaving you we never were together so stop acting like we are, because that won't happ-" he walks fast towards me and grips my upper neck with both hands and pulls me towards him and just kisses me.
I stand dumbfounded not knowing what to do but soon enough I give in and kiss him back. He deepens the kiss and pushes me closer to him and I wrap my hands into his hair making this all whimsical. I then pull away with my eyes still closed.
"Dean" I breathe out.
"I know" he says and lays his forehead against mine. As I open my eyes I see his looking at mine.
"This should feel wrong, but it doesn't" I say and take a step back.
"Last kiss till I see you next time," he says with a wink.
"Yeah, unless I was with somebody else"
"You mean, you being with charming or harry?" he asks and looks down not wanting to hear my answer.
"None of them. Not harry and not charming," I say and he looks up giving me a side smile that just made me want to kiss him all over again. God, control your hormones woman!
"We'll see" he says and puts a hand out to me and I look at him questionably.
"Let's go into town together, and get some breakfast maybe at the bakery you were talking about?"
"Sure, but if charming was there we won't eat there" I say poking his chest.
"No problem, now let's go before it becomes to late for breakfast" he says as I put my hand into his and we head to the gates.
Author's note:
I know I took a lot of time to update but i really hope this very long chapter and the last two will make up for it. <3 love you all!!!!!!
