Till We Meet Again (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 8

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“Finally done, packed, zipped, not ready to go” I sighed and somehow the song signed, sealed, delivered by Stevie Wonder popped in my head. Now I can’t stop singing it or playing it in my mind. I’ve got an acute case of LSS (last song syndrome), the song is stuck in my head until another one replaces it.

“Are you finished?” my dad asked as he opened my bedroom door. “Yup” I replied popping the ‘p’.

Then he grabbed my luggage and I carried my hand carry to put on the back of the car.

My uncle and aunt was there to help us sort things up and drive to the airport. We left the other stuff in the house as it is since my older sister is planning to stay and find work here after she finishes studying law, it won’t be long though she only got a year and a half left. Lucky bastard.

Besides it will be good to have a place to come home to whenever we like to visit or have a vacation.

I grabbed my phone and rung Kae when we arrived at the airport. “hey, we’re here where are you I thought you were here 10 minutes ago?”

“Turn around idiot” she answered and there she was, I hugged her and she returned the favour. I opened my eyes and saw the person behind her, Liam.

“Hey” he said and I went to hug him. We took a bit too long hugging because I heard Kae clearing her throat and we split.

“Ahw I’m going to miss you so bad” Kae frowned with tears building up in her eyes. I wrapped my left arm over her shoulder to comfort her.

“Hey, it’s ok we’ll meet each other soon, I can come visit you or vice versa if given the privilege, and we can always video chat or call each other.” I said kissing her in the forehead.

“So have you decided on what to say to you-know-who about this?” she whispered on my ear.

I glanced at Liam before answering her question, “I was about to”, I replied.

“Oh ok, I’ll go say my goodbyes to your parents and leave you two alone to talk” she said as she walked towards my parents.

“Can we talk outside?” I asked Liam. “Sure” he answered back.

“So what do want to talk about?” he said as we walked out the sliding door and sat on the bench outside.

I opened by mouth to speak but then closed it quickly. My palms are getting sweaty and nervous, how am I going to say this. “Ivo?” he asked again facing me.

I swallowed hard before I spoke, “I don’t think I can do this” I said softly,

“Then you should have told your parents that you don’t want to leave, you can stay with Kae or with me” he suggested.

“Are you crazy, my parents doesn’t even know we are together or that I’m gay” I blurted out, “besides that’s not what I’m pertaining to” I added looking down at my shoes.

“What then? Tell me” he said, his face softened.

“I think we should stop this, I don’t want to fall in love or let someone fall in love with me and then just leave” I replied tears trying to escape through my eyes.

Liam’s face turned to shock, confused then anger, “Are you breaking up with me?” he croaked with eyebrows knitted together.

I didn’t answer back and kept my face down not meeting his gaze as.

“What about the stuff you told Kae, the calling, video chatting and sh*t” he cussed anger flaring masking his hurt expression. Liam only swears when he is really upset or angry.

“I’m sorry ... It’s just that I don’t want to have false hope of coming back with you still loving me or me still loving you. People can have a change of heart, I’m not even sure when I’ll be coming back. Will you even be there after three to six years?” I cried out sobbing.

Liam stepped closer lifting my chin with his fingers to look him straight in the eyes, “Yes, of course I will, I don’t care how long it takes Ivo, I love you and I’ll definitely wait” he answered softly.

The thought of not seeing him every day, talking to him, not knowing what his up to and not being there pains me. Sure we’ll be contacting each other but how long will it last till we both get busy with school and life, that we don’t communicate anymore, it would only lead to either of us hurt.

I know there’s a possibility that it would work out but I’m not willing to take the risk. It’s painful, but it’s better this way, it would hurt less.

“Liam, I can’t... I just can’t, I really do love you but I’m sorry...please don’t make this harder than it has to be...hope you understand.” I pleaded as he stood up.

“I understand” he said and kissed me on the cheek as I saw tears in his eyes. “Goodbye Ivo” he said softly and walked away refusing to meet my eyes.

I sat back down, felt sick to my stomach and poured my eyes out before going back inside. Kae saw me and she came rushing to hug me.

“Oh Ivo, it’s going to be ok” she said as she tried to comfort me. We spent almost five minutes together then my mom came to tell me we have to check in.

We bid our goodbyes to my uncle and aunt and gave one last hug to Kae. “Take care ok... and ring me when you get there” she said.

“ok, love you Kae” I said softly and she answered back saying she love me too before we broke the hug and walked to my parents.

We passed through security and waited for the boarding call. I plugged in my Ipod and played some music as I look out the window seeing all this planes coming and going and trying so hard to fight back my tears again from escaping as I recall how shuttered Liam felt.

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