Vine Love-Book One

Chapter 19

I didn't look back even when Becca called my name. I ran as fast as I could away from the school. I hated my life. The past two days sucked and everyone seemed to hate or betray me.

Once I reached my house I shut the door quickly behind me. I jumped when someone started pounding on the door from the other side.

"Alice, open up!" shouted Becca. She must've followed me home. "I know you're there, I saw you run in! Please, Alice, listen!"

I groaned and opened the door. Becca was panting and her eyes were wet.

"You kissed Jacob, what else is there to say?" I said angrily.

"There's a lot more to say," she said out of breath. "Can I come in?"

We walked up to my room. I closed the door and looked at her.

"Speak." I said crossly.

"Jacob was asking me if you had talked about him since yesterday and I said not really because you were really sad that you two broke up. Then he said he still liked you but he was still really mad and didn't want to talk to you. Then you walked out of school. He got angry and kissed me to get you jealous!" she said. It was a lot to take in. "When you ran away, I pushed him off of me and slapped him. Then I ran after you. I promise on my life I don't like Jacob that way!"

"So he kissed you to make me jealous? And that's all?" I said crossing my arms.

"Yes, that's all." Becca said exasperated. "Please don't hate me!"

I began to smile. "How hard did you slap him?"

She laughed. "Pretty hard. You should've seen his face after!" We both laughed. I couldn't stay mad at her.

Even though I knew that Jacob didn't hate me, I still didn't talk to him and he didn't talk to me. I hated not talking to him, but I needed to give him space. Plus, I was still mad at him for kissing Becca.

The week was so boring without Jacob in it. He filled my thoughts during the day. At night I had nightmares about him hating me. I thought about how we met and some of our best memories together. I missed those days and I missed him. But how could he ever forgive, and how could I forgive him?

After 10 days of the silent treatment, I finally found him after school sitting on a bench. When he saw me coming towards him his body tightened. I stood in front of him, my face emotionless.

"We need to talk." I said. He frowned.

"Why?" he said. It was the first time I had heard his voice in days and it sounded strange.

"We need to sort things out." I said. He nodded. "Now."

We walked to my house in silence. It felt really awkward. I didn't look at him the whole walk and he didn't look at me.

Once we reached my house and walked inside we went up to my room. I closed the door and sat down on my bed. Jacob stood.

"I need you to hear me out." I said quietly. He didn't look at me. "Jacob, I wanted to tell you so badly. But I knew that if I told you, it would make everything all so real. It would mean that I am moving and that I would never see you anymore and--"
"I understand why you didn't tell me, I just wish you had told me sooner." Jacob said. I looked at him, but he didn't look back.

"I'm sorry, I know I should've told you. I lost so much for not telling you. Our friendship, our relationship, now you hate me--"
"What?" he said looking up at me. His eyes looked hurt. "I don't hate you, I could never hate you."

I frowned. "Really?"

He sat down next to me on my bed, but kept his distance. "I don't think I could ever hate you, Alice."

A fraction of a smile curled on my lips when he said my name. "Do you forgive me?" I asked quietly.

"Yes." said Jacob hesitantly.

"Good." I said. "But now you have to explain why you kissed Becca."

Jacob's face grew red. "About that..."
"Explain." I said loudly.

Jacob sighed, looking into his lap. "I was mad at you. You lied to me and I when I saw you I just got so mad. I wanted you to go through the pain that I went through. So I kissed her." he said. I felt tears spring at the back of my eyes. "I realized how wrong I was when Becca slapped me." I smiled.

"That's the least you deserved." I said. Jacob grinned a little.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that." Jacob said. I sighed.

"I forgive you too." I said. "And I want you back."

Jacob bit his lip. "I don't think that's a great idea."

I frowned. I could barely believe my ears. "What?" I said hurt.

"Maybe eventually we could be together again, but I think that we should take a break from each other."
I nodded, even though I didn't agree. I missed him so much and didn't want to spend another second without him. But he said that we might be together again...eventually. But how long is eventually?

"Ok." I forced out.

"But if you want to, I don't know, give me one last reminder of what used to be, I would be okay with that." Jacob said smiling. I smiled too.

I leaned in and kissed him. It wasn't long, but it was nice. Who know's when I would ever kiss Jacob again.