LAST VACATION

chapter 8

I hear foot steps come closer and I know its her.it's her coming to see me again. I feel sad. I want to stop the faking, but I can't. I told my dad I'll make him happy this vacation but right now I'm not and I know it. But letting go off other things was part of it, but this one, this particular one, I can't. Ok it has happened but I can't help it. Its bad am letting my emotions get the better of me but like I said, I can't help it.
The door opens and she walks in closing it behind her, she walks slowly to the bed and sits. She's looking at me..... she's looking at me and I know because I can feel it. And I feel guilty. Am laying down facing the other side from her. I don't want her to see the guilt all over my face.
I know what she will do next, sooth my hair, rub my back, ask how am feeling and the rest of that. She will tell me the usuals....."I love you baby, get well soon we miss you out there".
I feel the bedmove and i know she's coming closer. My body feel very giddy and am so tense but I try to relax. She sooths my hair for awhile and I feel her. .......she moves atop of me............I try to open my eyes and see what she's about to do and suddenly........ everything happens so fast I can't even comprehend.
I feel my face been covered by a pillow....blocking my eyes and my mouth. Sure it's so I don't see or scream. My hands. ....wrist!....are held together....pinned above my head. I try to struggle but his too strong I can't move, I'm laying between his legs......his kneeling over the pillows on both sides blocking and pinning my head down.
I feel the pain as he ties my hands together over my head. His hand slips under the pillow and his covering my mouth. It feels sticky.....it's tape.....it's covering my mouth with tape...... he presses my head to the side and I feel something rough over my eyes. Oh! .....a piece of clothe......his using it to blind fold me. I can't move, can't see, can't scream. I am helpless......I don't know who this man is but I know his one of us......I don't know what to think or do as I hear his zipper tear open. He roughly pushes my legs apart..........
I know this it.......my virtue has had its end of pride.

"Wake up hanna"
The voice calls with so much worry....her eyes snap open as she sees her mother and cara.

They both have the sadness in their eyes and the total concern expression on their faces.
Both women on her side now.....holding and cuddling her.

The dream seemed so real. More like it was happening again.
But now that she was awake and in the hands she knew too well......Hanna felt happy. At least she was save.
"Lemmi get you a cup of tea" cara offered leaving the room.

"Your dad heard you scream, he knew too well it'll be a night mare of you know........so he woke me and...." Dina paused holding Hanna closer and giving her an its ok now look.

"And told me to rush over......on my way I ran into cara as jimmy had done threams with her"
She rubbed her back in a way to tell her they all were here for her.

"Its ok mom......I. ..I'll try and be more up and doing.....I think of this... I mean I let it play in my head too much" she replied.

They both kept quite and held each other rocking back and forth.
The tension seemed to ease when cara walked in with three cups of tea.
"This for you......with extra sugar to chase your mares" cara teased.

"Thank you.....never knew sugar had wonders" she smiled taking the cup of tea.

"Oh there dear.....tell me...." Dina cracked up.

They gisted for a while and held the conversation light.cara had the most funny things to say. She always knew how to hold a good conversation.

They all took turns in what to say. Even Hanna had something to say.
One thing cara always tell people was when she put hair mousse on jimmy's home made cup cake and he eat it and thought it was really great. And she didn't hesitate telling them now.

She will say it and mimic jimmy just the way he acted before the cup cake and after he found out it was hair mousse on his cake. They all laughed.

They seemed to forget it was late and carried on with the chit chat, but soon Hannahs eyes started to give way to sleep.

Just as they had intended was how it was happening. Talking Hanna back to sleep. No one mentioned her night mare, or even asked what it was about.

Hanna lay down ready to sleep but hold on. She needed to give herself herself a mental note.

The man in her dream acted just as did her mom. He did expertly what her mom always did when she came in to check on her.

Maybe he'd always watch her, or maybe he knew just what to do that will seem normal.

That mostly should be Jackill but if he was not the one then, maybe he knew who, maybe he saw the person and that's why he got murdered. Maybe it was him but after, he felt too quilty and killed himself.

With all her houghts, if giving the chance, she will not consider Jackill at all. He was too nice to her, they were friends. He always got her fashion magazines, hide sandwitches for her. They were friends and had a lot of moments to remember....

"Sleep dear, stop thinking" Dina's voice interrupted her thoughts.

Just slowly she nodded and smiled. Her mom always knew her to well and read her mind too much.

"Good night baby" given her a kiss on the forehead, Dina tucked her Daughter in and head out.

"Night mom" she answered.

Just as the door closed, she felt the sleep knocked in and couldn't resist but give in.