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Ugh

I've complained about this before, but I NEED to find a new drawing style. When people find a style they like, that usually means it looks good, is fun to draw, and you can easily recreate it.

WELL NOT MY STYLE.

It may be easy to recreate, but not really fun to draw. I want to actually HAVE FUN creating art. That's one of the main points of drawing.

Of course I prefer kind of like a Fairy Tail style, realistic anime, but one thing runs in my family: lack of patience.

When I want to draw something complex, I don't mind if it takes hours/days, but I DO mind if it isn't perfect the first time around. I don't have the patience for practicing hours on end, day after day. You may think, "WELL DUH. GIT GUD. SIT THERE FOR HOURS AND JUST DO IT!"

Sorry, it doesn't work that way for me. You can't tell an impatient person to suddenly be patient.

But don't get me wrong, my sketchbook is FULL of shitty drawings for sure. Some are good, most are shit. But I don't mind. I know someday, sometime, as long as I keep drawing, I'll get GUD eventually.

Impatience and lack of interest was one of the first reasons I quit years ago. I've improved a lot since then, but my drawings still are not nearly as good as I want them to be. And when I fail a drawing, my self-esteem and confidence goes WAAAAAAAAAAAY down. I'm talkin bout to the Earth's core down.

BUT

It's my ARTISTIC self-esteem and confidence goes down. As for my body image, I'm pretty content with myself.

And when my artistic side goes down I feel like all my drawings are trash and I'll never get better. I hate feeling that way. I'll experiment as much as I can tomorrow with different styles and see what I can find. My sister owns some of Christopher Hart's manga books, and I like his style, so maybe I can tweak it a bit to make it my own. I don't know.

Thanks for listening.

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