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Heart break

"We Need To Talk".

1 sentance. 4 words. 12 Letters.

Said by a boy, mostly.

But the most terrific and scary thing, which makes a girl's heart ache terribly, and her hands tremble with nervousness.

Sometimes, it's not just nervousness, it's also fear, tension of what might lay ahead. What does he want to say? Why did he text this?

I am scared...of losing someone I love the most.

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[12 hours ago]

'Beep beep' my watch rang softly, waking me from my trance. Huh? Where was I?

Oh right. Prison. Sorry, S-C-H-O-O -L.

The first thing which caught my eye was the 'Circuit diagram' on the blackboard. I stiffled a laugh. The teacher should seriously take drawing classes, or else we'll forget what a circuit is.

Wait...what? Who am I to think about other students? I'm insensitive, aren't I?

Anyhow,it was Physics and I had spaced-out in class again. This was happening frequently, nowadays. God knows why.

Its not that I day-dreamed like a love-sick girl while spacing out. Mostly my mind was blank. Sometimes, I thought about how would I be able to continue my life this way. I hadn't told my parents about the torture I went through at school. Nor had I told about the Online Life of mine.

How long would I be able to keep it a secret? How long will I be able to keep my online life, also a secret from my parents?

I guess that's what the books meant when they said "Adolescents normally don't like sharing things with their parents. They like to keep it amongst themselves or within the people of their age-group". Funny how I wasn't able to realise it until now..

Ahhhhh I had spaced out again, thinking about these stuff.

Suddenly..."Tring Tring!!". Crap, I hadn't heard anything what the teacher had said. But it wouldn't matter. I already had memorized the jist of the chapter.

But on the better side, it was the last bell for the day. For today, school was over. At last. Finally free from the emotional torture.

I packed my bag, and joined my friends as we left school. They were chattering all the time while leaving class, while walking down the stairs and also while leaving the gates. I added some spice to their discussions, while waiting for my car to come n pick me up.

Eventually, the automobile arrived, and off I went towards my heaven.

'Can't wait until I reach home. Dang I'm so restless...hehe'

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[Back to present]

If I say that I was shocked, it would be an understatement. I didn't know in what state I was in. Never had I gone through such an incident, owing to the fact that I wasn't in a relationship before, until 9 months back.

I read the message over and over again, tears threatening to fall from my eyes.

Him : "We need to talk".

I texted back : Ok...I'm here now.

Almost instantly, came his reply : I'm...not sure whether this is the right time...

Me : what!? Tell me.. is it good or bad??

My heart was pounding like anything.

Him : I don't know...

Me : so tell!! Please...

Him : well I don't know whether we should continue this or not..

Me : (carefully controlling the tears) oh......

Him : see...I mean, we need to concentrate on our studies..not these.. we can continue our relationship later.

Me : umm..ok i understand..

Him : good girl. Sorry I gtg now. Prms v r friends. V'll b in touch.

Me : bye...love u.. (my heart was shattered)

Him : love u too.

And...that was it. According to him, it was over... for now.

I know that, by the time we'll be adults, the feeling won't remain the same. But it's no use telling him so. I'll just keep quiet and and bear with the pain. Atleast, we are friends.

Unable to control myself anymore, I put on my headphones, and switched on my mp3 player. Volume to the max.

A song started playing, which always reminded me of him. What a coincidence. Just like in movies.
Ah..I miss him so much...why...why did it have to happen..why!!!

I started crying and kept on crying, till sleep overtook me.

"So Love me like you do..Lo-lo-love me like you do... Touch me like you do..To-to-touch me like you do......"

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~Yours sincerely,
Shikaki (hehehe)

741 words...whoosh... I'm done for now...

The song is : Love Me Like You Do from Fifty Shades of Grey

Hey I didn't see the movie..chill! I just like the song. ONLY the song. XD