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A Letter

Subete for you~ Kotae nante~
Nakute ii subete wa, kimi no egao no kanaki aru,
Truth~ hanarete ii temo~
Kokoro to kokoro wa, sunagate iru forever kimi to~

Eolmana gidaroya,
Tto myeut bameul, deo sewoya,
Neol boge doelkka (neol boge doelkka),
Mannage doelkka (mannage doellka)~

Haruman neowa naega hamkkehal su itdamyeon,
Haruman neowa naega sonjabeul su itdamyeon,
Haruman neowa naega hamkkehal su itdamyeon,
Haruman (haruman)
Heowa naega hamkkehal su itdamyeon~

Annyeonghaseyo Suga-hyung,

I know that I've been irritating you by texting you everywhere possible, but that's the only way I could try my best for you to see how desperate I was to get you back. And when you blocked me from everywhere , I realised that it was time for me to confront you personally.

I still can't talk to you face-to-face, I still can't look at you directly in the eye for what I did. So,I thought maybe a letter would be enough for now. Please don't tear it apart and throw it away without reading it..I beg you.

Hyung, I'm so sorry for what I did. Everyone of us go through extreme hell at least once in our lifetime. You must've gone through a lot too..which explains your insecurity. I went through it a couple of times, for which I've got trust issues now..and it really takes me a while to trust someone and consider them as a bestfriend/close friend.

I've been betrayed several times before, so I've become cold towards it and got a 'gondarer chamra' now..which would explain why I'm so insensitive when it comes to thinking of others' feelings before saying/doing anything which is harsh for the other person.

I'm sorry.

Stuff made me turn into a monster. I always tell people about me being "dangerous" when I meet new people who want to be my friend. But I never got the opportunity to warn you about it..

I know I have this bad habit of judging people, I can't control what I say, and I tend to hurt the people who I love strongly and care for a lot.

Hyungie, I really considered you to be my bestfriend. I've rarely felt so attached to someone so fast as I've been with you, i.e., in a matter of few months (not even a year).

I might seem cold, but actually I'm not. Please believe me... I really care for you.. I do love you.. a lot.... more than you can ever imagine..

Please don't be insecure about your friendship with me.. I've learnt my mistake, I won't try to hurt you ever again... Please try to understand me once.. Please give me a second chance, a small one. I'll try to make up to it..

Someone once told me that I don't deserve to be loved, I don't deserve any care or affection, I don't deserve a bestfriend... I know you believe the same..after what I've done to you.. but maybe if you'd just give me a second chance, I'd show you how truly sorry I am.

I never meant to do it.. I regret saying it.. I regret never thinking of your feelings.. I regret not being able to be with you when you were in trouble.. I regret not helping you that day.. I regret everything wrong I did towards you..

You're 'so far away' from me.. 'I need U', girl. You're my 'blood sweat and tears'.  'Even if i die, its you', Even if you hate me, I'll always love you. I'll always look out for you, 'Tomorrow, Today', everyday. From far away, I'll keep a check on you, so that no one ever tries to hurt you and harm you in any away. I'll 'Never Ever' hurt you again.. 'Bogo Shipda'.. I'd really do anything 'For You'...  I 'Adore U'.. Please let's become friends again.. please 'Say Yes'.. I know I've been a 'Monster' to you, but please 'Don't Go'.. 'Let me Know' of your answer..

Yours sincerely,
TaeTae.

P.S. - Saranghaeyo ♡