Dear Diary...

LGBT+

So i'm kind of upset right now. I just realized- well confirmed actually- that my family is homophobic. Or maybe not completely hating, but they disapprove of it. They're unaccepting.

We're a christian family, myself included. We believe in God. My dad has even read the bible several times. But they think being homosexual is wrong, that it goes against God.
We have a family business and a few of our clients are gay. My parents treat them right and stuff but i've heard my dad tell my mom that as long as they don't show PDA then they'd be okay. I mean, they tolerate it and my mom may joke about gay guys, but i know that they look down on them. They don't even try to understand.

I know the bible says that men should not lay with men as they do with women, but it also says that women who lose their virginity before marriage shall be stoned to death as punishment and that we shouldn't eat pork. But who follows that? People only listen what they want to hear, what doesn't inconvenience them.

They say that being gay is wrong, but i don't understand how. The bible says we should love those around us, not hate them. We say everyone is different and it is true. Just like the color of your skin, whom you love doesn't make you less human, or less worthy. Why can't people just accept each other?

Sometimes i wonder what my parents would say and think of me if i told them i was part of LGBT. I mean, i'm straight but what if? Would they shun me? Would they be disappointed of me? Would they accept it or would they say it's just a phase? I hate to think of their reactions, because even if i wish they were, i know they are not perfect. Nobody is.

I just- it hurts me that they speak of God and love, yet they talk of gays as if they were some kind of wrong-doing against the bible.

How is it wrong to love another person?