A reader brought this to my attention.
Guys if you're dealing with ANYTHING just message me I don't care what time it is I WILL answer and try to help. You're not a bother or a burden or annoying. I love you guys and I may not know you personally but I do love you guys. I have gone through so much shit and I may not understand each of your situations but I can promise to listen, and if you want advice I will give it to you.
Depression - It isn't sadness, it's so much more, and NO YOU CANNOT just 'snap out of it' or 'choose to be happy'. If you're dealing with depression (diagnosed or undiagnosed) you're a fighter. You will get through this alive and I will be right there to help you if needed. Depression is when the neurotransmitters serotonin norepinephrine and dopamine are abnormally low in one's body causing their mood to shift. Basically your 'happy' chemicals are extremely low and your 'sad' chemicals stay at the same level causing an imbalance in your body. Science have disproved the whole ' depression is a state of mind '
Eating Disorders - Gosh what do I say about this? Honey you're so much more than the number on the scale. Being healthy is so much better than being skinny/thin. Skinny does NOT = prettiness or perfection. What's attractive about yellow/gray skin, brittle nails, and a hairy body? Being cold all the time and fainting from lack of nutrients? Having cardiac arrest and hunger pains. There's nothing fun about kissing someone whose breath smells like throw up or can't keep a meal down because their body is used to purging it up. Teeth falling out isn't attractive; healthiness is attractive along with loving yourself. It may be hard but it's worth it. Maybe you don't hear enough or at all but you are so beautiful the way you are. Ana and Mia can shut the fuck up, don't let them control your health.
SH- This is a touchy subject but it needs to be said. Guys you're so much more than a piece of metal. If I could go back in time to stop myself from that first cut, shit, I would. From that first burn, self given bruise, I would. I always thought I could control my cutting/burning but soon enough it began to control me, it still does. I'm not going to tell anyone to stop cause I realize how pointless it would be, people only hear what they want to hear. I truly get the moment of numbness the metal brings, that odd feeling that I can't quite describe when I used to burn. All I'm saying is in the end it's not worth it. I made my first cut when I was in 5th grade and now I'm a senior; I look at my arms and my legs, stomach and thighs and realize that I could've handled things better than slashing my skin open till I passed out. I promise not to ask you to stop I'm just saying that you're so much more than any form of self harm whether it's cutting, drinking, drugs, burning, breaking bones, scratching till you bleed, hair pulling, and bruising your self.
Suicide- I don't want to make this too long cause this subject is very sensitive to me. If you're thinking about suicide just know that there are so many books to be read, new drinks to try, t.v shows to be watched and new music to listen and get into. Pierce The Veil says they're releasing a new album soon but we all know that's not true. There are so many small things to look forward to that are worth sticking around for. Suicide is a very permanent solution to someone's problem and I promise you no matter how tough it is there's always another option other than suicide, you just need a fresh look on the situation or maybe a different perspective.
Recovery
Recovery is the hardest part of any addiction and that's exactly what the eating disorders, and SH is. An addiction is something that consumes your thoughts and in a way your life revolves around it. Whether it's hiding your scars/marks or trying to figure out how you're going to tell others you're not hungry. It's the constant paranoia that SOMEONE knows or is going to discover your secret and expose it to the world, whatever it is, it consumes your mind and you change who you are for it. Guys recovery is the worst process anyone can go through but it's liberating once you realize your self worth and value. I'm not going to lie to you, you're going to relapse at least once, and more than likely it'll happen again and again. It's not going to happen in a week or a month, hell I'm STILL in recovery and it's been three years. It takes patience and understanding of yourself. Every time I've relapsed it gets harder for me to relapse again because I'm becoming stronger. It sounds cliche but guys it gets so much better and you feel so much better. I remember when it used to be that someone would say I was fat and I would cry and start cutting now? I know that I am beautiful and no matter what people say they can't change my mind about it. You can't conquer everything all at once it takes time, conquer one thing at a time and when you do it's amazing. Please understand that this is a hard and long process and some days will be better than others. One day might be completely easy and enjoyable while others you're struggling and mentally fighting yourself. Whatever is going on guys I love you so much and if you're thinking about Self Harming for the first time please inbox me! I didn't mean to make it to be all about me so for that I am sorry but I hope this helped
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Now for the story part of this A/N! I'm thinking about creating an Update scheduale like every Wednesday and Sunday but because I'm a lazy person I probably won't keep up with that and I have practice after school and college in the mornings. Sooo I'll figure out a schedule and let you guys know, I hope you enjoyed the last chapter. I will probably not update till this Thursday since school is a bitch and I'm enrolled in a college and I have a gazillion things to finish. Also Jaime isn't sad about Alec and Emily, nor does he like them so keep reading~ I promise this isn't just another fanfic!
"Stay happy not crappy, life's a bitch don't quite, peace out thug pugs!"
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