Rebel Love Song

BVB Merch Signing

I was freaking out. I mean this man helped keep me breathing. His lyrics changed how I viewed the world and his quotes helped me become my true self. He helped me through so much without ever physically being there. How do you thank someone like that?

In fanfictions I would casually say thank you for everything, get my merch signed, and leave happily.

But this? This is reality. Abby was looking at me carefully. I knew what she was thinking. Andy introduced me to alternative music, he made me feel better about myself, he gave me a reason to smile after my twin died. His music seemed to pierce my heart and let my soul pour out. After listening to Knives and Pens for the first time I wasn't the same. Something in me changed and I was no longer what everyone expected me to be. I was me. Andy helped me find myself and helped me when I wasn't myself. I just owed him too much and Thank You wasn't enough. "SKYLAR!!" I looked at Abby "you've been spaced out and we're almost next" my heart started racing. This was too much, I was suffocating, I couldn't breathe. My head was spinning and I was shaking. I had anxiety but this was the worst possible time for me to have a panic attack. I started scratching my arms and Abby looked at me with wide eyes. "Here's some water" I grabbed the bottle shaking. I couldn't swallow. Everything was distorted and I felt claustrophobic. My right arm was red and raw from me scratching it. "I need to leave now" we were about to step out when Ashley saw me crying. "Are you ok?" Abby said something but I couldn't hear her. I clasped onto Abby and stumbled as she caught me. "What's the hold up!" I heard someone yell "can't you see someone's about to faint you fuck tard!!" I smiled as Abby defended me. Then everything went black