Gosh.....I'm such an idiot! I shouldn't have put him on blast like that! I mean, who would be comfortable in a situation like that? Nobody. I was a little too harsh on trying to get an answer from him. I really like him. I liked him ever since I ran into him on that fateful afternoon. And no, I'm not trying to act tsundere to hide my feelings for him so stop prejudging me! I've never felt this way about someone before and coming from a society that ignores displays of affection, it's pretty difficult to know how to convey intimate emotions without it being awkward. It's too embarrassing to ask my mom--let alone my dad--on how to express my feelings towards someone. Heck, they would kill me for being in a relationship when I should be focused on my academics and getting into a good university. Also, my friends don't see me as the kind of person who cares for relationships anyways, so why bother consulting them? He usually ignores me whenever he's around me but I can't put all the blame on him. I didn't do my part into engaging with him more and making him feel like a friend so that makes me just as guilty. You know what, I'm going to apologize to him for being brash and hopefully we can start on the right foot.
He was gone for a week and no one knew what happened to him. Even Yuusuke didn't know. When he came back to school he didn't look to well. My goodness, he looked like he was going to collapse at any given time! Maybe I shouldn't approach him yet. He doesn't look too good and I might not be the best person that he would like to see at the moment. I'll wait a little longer but I can't keep putting this on the back burner or else it'll be too late to do anything about it.
It's been a few days since he's returned but he looks more somber than usual. The same goes for Yuusuke as well. Eh? What's going on? When I catch him looking sad while we're walking to school, I try to ask Yuusuke but he won't tell me. He just says something along the lines, "Huh? Oh--psh--it's nothing, Moa. I was just thinking to myself. Besides, this is my resting face--you should know that by now. C'mon, I'm okey-dokes hehehe..." I'm so confused right now and it's frustrating! But other than that things have been their normal ways so I guess it's just me losing my mind and me making up my own scenarios. Is this what love does to someone psychologically?
Culture Day is coming up in a few weeks. Perhaps I can use that as my opportunity to confess my feelings to Tendou and clear the air. Oh I just hope he doesn't take it the wrong way and we end up being more distant from one another. I really, really, really, REALLY want to make things right! If there's a God out there, please look over me and bless me with the answer I am searching for!
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There Might Not Be a Tomorrow
Fanfiction"I want to love you, I really do...but my heart won't let me." A young man has just recently transferred to a high school in Tokyo that, coincidentally, Moa and her friends attend. Not much is known about the new student except that he and his moth...
