There Might Not Be a Tomorrow

A Long Time Coming

     Yo! It's Yuusuke! Haha...aaaah why do I talk to myself like this? Anyways, this might seem like something that's coming directly out of left-field but I have, for a long time, admired Moa. Yes, THE Moa Kikuchi. She was one of the first friends I made in Primary school and we've been friends since. I've had many friends before but we've all grown distant from each other because of our personal interests and ambitions. Which is okay, don't get me wrong. People change and grow over time and so do friendships. However, the friendship between me and Moa has never wavered even when there were times where things got out of control and seemed very bleak. We pulled through it together and it made us even stronger coming out of it alive. She knows I will always have her back and I know she will have mine. So....it's not going to be a bad thing if I tell her about how I feel about her right? Right?! We have a mutual understanding with one another so there's no way she will turn me down. 

     I just want to take a few minutes to convey why I have grown to love Moa because it's not like anyone can read my mind or anything like that and use it to blackmail me in the future--hehehe. Well, like I said before, we met as school kids. She seemed like a loving and warm-hearted person. Her dimples....her smile.....her eyes....everything about her glowed like the brightest of stars like Orion's Belt. Me being the naive little boy that I was, misinterpreted these feelings of infatuation with feelings of "Oh! She looks like a nice person. I wanna be friends with her." One of the cutest things she did, and still does to this day, is when she puffs her cheeks from one side to the other. It's nothing special but something about it just makes me smile from how cute she does it. She's so free-spirited and eccentric from the rest of the girls that I've met so far in my life that she's like a breath of fresh air from submerging oneself underwater. Her mannerisms and behaviors are quite misleading when she gets down to business and is serious. Man, it's just so cool how she can switch off her personalities and move from one to another when the situation calls for her to do so. Overall, she's just someone that can make you feel good about yourself even when you know you're nothing, yet, you are wiling to believe her words to escape the fact that you are nothing only if it's for a moment. And I want more than that. I want physical comfort. I want to hug her and hold her in my arms in a more intimate way. I want to feel her skin next to mine. My hands wrapped around her delicate body...her lips close to mine....I want all of it. I want to know how it feels like to be with someone whom you have loved for so long but never been "official". But now I'm going to know. And I will find out when I ask her out......on Culture Day.