My boss

Maria Lascelle and Family (23)

I freeze and shake my head no over and over again. "Please no. No no." I start feeling myself go into a panic attack. I push myself away from Hotch. I can't breathe. Emily starts to panic "Hey breath breath." I look at her "It hurts it hurts... It hurts." I fall on the ground "I can't..." Morgan joins her trying to touch me but I refuse his touch. "Don't." He backs away. Hotch looks at Reid "Reid? What's happening!" Reid looks at Hotch then JJ "Whatever happens... Hotch remember she loves you. And JJ, I love you..." It's all he says and then approaches me... Then I hear him.

"Where are you? What's your name? What's going on?" I look at him and zoom out I feel myself disconnect from my body... And things go blank for a while.

Reid POV

She's having a flash back. I don't bother telling the team I go right to work. We need to know who Maria is. We need to know who her best friend is. I know what I have to do. I tell JJ I love her and ask Lily;

"Where are you? What's your name? What's going on?" Then it happens I know I tap into her self conscious. And before me it happens she smiles. And I hear the team gasp when she says;

"Canada, Li-Anne and... You and Spenny want me to do a fight to the death match. Sam please baby. I don't want to kill anyone. Please." I turn and JJ and Hotch both are frozen. But they nod understanding what is going on. "I'm sorry babe. But you have to." I say firmly... "Li-Anne tell me what happened."

"There's so much blood Sam. So much blood. I'm a killer... I... I won... But my body hurts..." The whole team is silent. And she starts to cry and I know she's back. She looks at me "Reid..." Then it comes back "REID!" She slaps me. I hold my cheek. "You SOB!!! How could you!!!!" I look at her "We needed to know." She looks at Hotch and Hotch is pale.

Lily POV
I can't believe Reid did that. I... Oh no Hotch. I look at him and he's pale. Emily at this point was back with everyone. I look at them... They all look like they're looking at a ghost. "Hotch... It was life or death... You have to believe me..." Hotch looks at me "I'm in love with a killer...." I flinch

"Aaron. I... Spenny... He ran the girl fighting club. Sam and him were rivals. Maria was his girlfriend and I was Sam's.... And Sam made a bet... Said that I could win in a death fight against her... I took every hit. I barely touched her... Then she pulled a knife..." I know the whole team is listening but I'm looking at my boyfriend the men I love in the eyes "She... Actually stabbed me.." I lift my shirt and show them the scar on my stomach. "That's when I knew... If I didn't fight back... Id die.... So I snaked around her and and and.... I broke her neck." "Then in remember telling Sam there was so much blood that I won... Then nothing." "I was out for 3 days.." I'm shaking. This can't be happening. They could arrest me for murder right here. Right now. I zone out in my thoughts the cracking sound running over and over in my mind. Then I feel a hand on my shoulder. I look around and notice it's only Aaron and I. He looks at me;

"Is that what really happened..." He whispers like he's scared I'm gonna break. I'm already broken he can't break me right now. I nod. I look at him "I'm a killer." He shakes his head no "No you protected yourself. And your identity. Did your boss know about the fight?" I slowly nod "He told me that this was an important mission... To do what I had to do to get it done..." I feel him tense "He's the one that made you a killer. If you were one." I finally look at him and he's crying "Aaron don't cry." I wipe his tears "I can't help it. I know what it like to kill someone with your hands." I look at him "What?" He sighs "Remember the killer that killed my wife... I killed him." I'm shocked "I'm sorry you had to do that." That when he looks at me "I didn't have too. He told me that I won and I kept going... Morgan ripped me off of him." I blink a few times and notice he blinks, my instinct is to text Reid... But I just slapped him... I frown an look at my boss "We're def both f*cked up." I say and he laughs and I join "We are. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you." I feel my heart explode. It didn't kill my relationship. He knows how it feels... He knows the guilt. "I love you too... Marry me?" It comes out before I can stop it. I cover my mouth and he laughs "One day." I smile. And we kiss. We keep kissing then I hear someone clear their throat.

I look up and I see one of my best friend. "Spencer. I'm so sorry." I finally stand up and I hug him. He hugs me back "I'm sorry I did what I did. But we needed to know. I'm sorry you were put in that sort of situation... You're best friend... That was sarcasm wasn't it... Kyle meant Spenny didn't he..." I look at my best friend "He did... And if anyone can break me... He can." Reid smiles "Well we won't let him." I look at him "He blinked by the way." I feel Hotch facepalm behind me "What is with you people and my blinking." Reid says "You never do it!" Hotch roll his eyes and does an exaggerated blink for Reid. "Garcia is going to be jealous." All three of us laugh. I take my boyfriends hand an my best guy friends arm and we walk out.

The rest of the team all hug me. Saying sorry then I notice Rossi is being quiet "Dave?" He looks at me "One to go. I have a feeling he's the worst one yet..." Everyone goes quiet and I nod. "He will try and break me." Rossi and the team all look at me smile, and at the same time they say "We won't let him." I laugh and everyone jumps. Rossi looks at me "We're a family. We stick together. Your past is your past. It doesn't determine your future. You could of pulled the trigger on Kyle. But you didn't. That says a lot." I look at him and hug him "Thank you." He hug me back "You're welcome." Then I look at Morgan "Call Garcia. And update her. Tell her to look up the name Spenny Gillies. Find everything you can on him. That's our guy." He nods and get on the phone. I feel Emily's hand on my shoulder "That's my girl."