My boss

Story time (13)

We get on the jet and everyone sits together. I take a deep breath "I'm only explaining this once so Morgan. Did you want to call your baby girl." Garcia picks up and her face appears on the screen "Boss man, Lily! I'm happy you two are okay. And I totally ship it. Boss man needs some loving and a women that can speak her mind and put him in his place." Everyone laughs except Hotch. Hotch speaks up "I'm happy your um 'ship' us? Lily the team is yours." I look at Hotch and stand up.

"My name is Li-Anne Françoise Marie  Chénier, I know it's a mouth full it's one of he reasons why I go with Lily. The other reason was Samuel... He... I was undercover to grab his attention so he can open up and talk about his plans. During our 'relationship' he was extremely abusive and would use my full first name. It's why I got even more mad at Aaron when he used it. Spending almost 4 years pretending to love someone eventually turns into falling in love. 3 years into our relationship... Samuel proposed. I said yes. At this point I was in love with a killer. I witness him pull the trigger on innocent people. He would even watch me harm myself." I lift my shirt a bit revealing all my scars including I pull it down and keep going "Then... It happened... I got pregnant. I..." I start to shake and at this point I had the team in tears. And Aaron was looking at me with sympathy in his eyes. My hand goes to my stomach "I was 3 months pregnant when they raided us... The stressed and getting thrown around.... Lead me to a miscarriage." Everyone gasp. I take a deep breath "I took a year off everything. But I started getting death threat from Samuel and other people in his group. And then John the director of the FBI... Offered me a way out of Canada. If I agreed to sign up for the BAU. And here I am a years later. Out of Canada for my safety... But less safe then I thought. Since Sam said the others were looking for me. Oh god... They know I'm in the states!" It finally sinks in. Before I know it I'm on the ground. Head in my hands sobbing. "You're all in danger... Because of me..." I feel a hand on my shoulder and I look up and see Emily.

She pulls me into a hug "I know how you feel. But unlike me you didn't try and fight it on your own. You told us. I'm sorry about your baby." I nod and hug her back. "Thank you." I look up at the team and Garcia is crying she wipes her tears "Oh buttercup. You are getting a hug and a cupcake when you get here!!!" I smile "Thanks Pen." She nods and signs off. JJ is next "I think most of us did undercover work. So I know how DL all this has to stay. But looking a baby on a mission..." She puts her hand on her stomach and Reid takes the other hand, JJ eyes are filled with tears "I know how that feels." I look at JJ tears matching my own. She come and hugs me. Reid speaks up "Lily... I'm so sorry." He gets up and squeezes my shoulder. They go sit down and they leave me with Rossi, Morgan and Hotch. Three of them stoned faced.

"That SOB." Morgan growls. Rossi nods and Aaron doesn't react. Morgan looks at me "Nothing will happen to you. Not when you have us. You stay with someone until we have this figured out." He then stands up an pulls me into a bear up. He kisses the top of my head and leaves to join the rest of the team. Rossi doesn't say anything much else "Bella, we will protect you." Is all he said he kissed me on both cheeks and left me with my boyfriend.

I stood there starring at him, he's shaking and starting blankly at his hands. I can tell he's angry and tense. I take a shaky breath and that snaps him out of his trance "Lily, I'm sorry about you baby. I'm so sorry." He stands up and pulls me into a protective hug. I break. I fall to the ground and sob he gently joins me and pulls me on his lap. I cry for the lost of everything. My friends, my family, Sam an my baby. Aaron is rocking me and I can feel the team looking at us. I know they feel bad. And want to come comfort me but I'm happy they don't. Aaron gets up and carries me to the couch... I want to cut right now... But I fight the feeling and keep crying. I cry and cry and cry... And then I fall sleep.

Hotch POV

She's such a strong women and here she is braking down. I know where her mind is but she too busy crying to move and I wouldn't let her cut. She's beautiful, strong, a leader and smart. She's been suffering alone for a hole year. A year self hatred... I shiver at the though. I feel her breathing even out and I realize she cried herself to sleep. How many nights did she do that? Is all I ask myself. I lay her down and join the team, we all stay quiet. And JJ being the mother of the group, wipes my tears. I didn't know I was crying. I look at everyone and they are all crying;

"We're lucky she's alive." Reid whispered. We all nod. I take a deep breath "Emily will you take her home with you? I'll pick her up tomorrow for our date." Everyone looks at me like I've grown another head "She wouldn't want us to treat her differently. Plus I still like her, and I plan on taking her out." Everyone nods and Morgan says "Treat her right Hotch. Put her above work sometimes." I nod "I plan on it."