Today I thought of you. I have not thought about you in a long time. Not because I was angry or have some kind of bitterness stored away. Just because it's been so long since I've seen things that reminded me of you.
In all my thoughts, I came across the realization that you were my first love? To have a first love is these arbitrary little things that now seem like nothings.
Like today it wasn't someone asking me if I'd love someone before remind me of you. It was someone smiling like you did. The smile you had was what I believes made me fall in love with you. I don't think I've ever actually allowed myself to say I've loved anyone until now.
Your smile slightly lifted on your to your left side. It wasn't like you had these perfect teeth, quite opposite actually. When we first met you were seven and you had braces. Your teeth weren't perfect it was rather the smile that was. It was warm, it was safe but at the same time adventurous and all knowing.
I remember so much about you and yet you've faded from my memory. I don't remember the exact moment I fell in love with you. But I remeber when you told me about your daring life and younger siblings. I remember having butterflies every time I saw you. I remember walking past you swaying my hips to see if you'd notice. And I remember waiting every summer just to see your smile.
Perhaps I am crazy and I am too young to say I loved anyone. But love is not measured by age but by feelings.
Maybe I am just naive but I measure love and I have decided you my first.
Love,
A girl who remembers you
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