Not all Teens can Love

Chapter 19: Break ups and Moms

I looked into Andrew's green eyes as I leaned closer and closer to him. My lips finally met his, and it was an amazing kiss. Nothing I felt with Alex or Aaron. Aaron was techincally my first kiss, so it felt like my best, Alex was more of a comfortable kiss, and this kiss was something unexplainable. I pulled away out of fear. What if he left me? Before I could say anything,

"Chloe?" I turned around to see Alex's hurt expression.

"Alex, I-" I began, but he just shook his head and walked away. I began to follow until I felt a hand on my wrist.

"You're going to just leave me?" Andrew asked me as I looked away, and began to back away.

"I'm sorry."

"Sorry?" He repeated. I just shook my head side to side as I went inside to find Alex. I really don't know what I am doing anymore, but everything is beginning to suck. Everything was going great, but my birthday ruined everything. Turning seventeen was nothing. I looked around and walked through masses and masses of people. I finally turned to a random person, and asked,

"Where's Alex?"

"He left." The blonde girl told me.

"He left?" I repeated.

"Yeah, sorry." Then realization spread across her face, "Hey, you're Chloe. Happy Birthday and sick party."

"Thanks," I smiled sadly at her as I made my way to the front door.

"Chloe?" I heard someone call after me. I ignored him as I made my way to find my car. I felt a tug on my jacket, and looked down to see Augustina's five year old brother.

"Yes, sweetie?" I went down to his level.

"Andrew told me to give you this," He kissed my cheek and pulled away quickly as he blushed and shyly spoke, "and this."

I looked to his small hand holding a paper. I smiled at the little cute boy in front of me.

"Thanks Jace." I hugged him, and led him to his room. He was suppose to be sleeping. I tucked him in, and wished him a good night  I watched him sleep as tears rolled down my eyes.

"What's wrong?" I heard a small voice ask. I thought he was sleeping. I quickly wiped the tears away from my face.

"I promise you that I am going to be okay." I said with a small bit of confidence as I left his room. I remembered the piece of paper Jace gave to me. I closed his door as he wished me good luck. What a cute kid. I opened the letter as I made my way to Augustina's room. I opened the door, and saw Augustina hugging Alex.

"Alex? I th-thought you left." I studdered.

"No, I couldn't. I wanted to see you." He said in a small voice.

"What is it?" I asked unsure if I really wanted to know.

"I still love you and I always have, but I really like someone else. Can you please accept that?"

"I already told you. That's why I broke it off. I just want you to be happy, can't you see that? Why does everyone try to make me feel worse?" I began to shout. "If all you want something from me, I will leave tomorrow for all I care. I will go back home and graduate there. Why do you have to make this so hard? Just accept it! Damnit."

"Chloe, I didn't mean to-" I interrupted him before he could finish.

"What? Didn't mean to hurt me? Didn't mean to love someone else? I don't want to know what you didn't mean to do, but I want to know what you did mean to do." He didn't say anything. I crumbled the paper in my clenched fists as I spoke, "Goodbye."

I walked out of the door, out of the house that I no longer felt comfortable being in.

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"Chloe?" My mom called as I walked through the front door. When I didn't answer, she walked out of her room. I was making my way up the stairs until she yelled at, "Why didn't you answer me?"

I turned around slowly with my face turned away from her.

"Look at me." She demanded. I looked up, and her face went from hard to soft. She whispered, "Baby, what's wrong?"

I ran into her arms, and cried so hard. I hugged her with all my strength as she shushed me, and told me everything happens for a reason.

"I-I-" I choked on my words, but just cried some more. After a few minutes, my mom let me go as she led me to the living room. She told me she will be right back. After less than a minute, she was back with a pen and a journal.

"Write, sweetheart. Write your heart out. Don't write for anyone but yourself." And that is exactly what I did. She sat next to me for support, but did not once read what I wrote.

After about two hours of writing, I felt better and was ready to talk to my mom. She did not once leave me alone. In fact her phone kept ringing so much that I watched her get up, open the back door, and throw her phone in the pool as she swore at it saying she is "too damn busy with her daugther". I saw her walk back to me, and watch me write. A small smile formed on my face knowing she was trying to change.

"I love you, mom."

"I love you too."

"Mom?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I go visit Chicago for a week?"

"It's your senior year."

"I end school next week. Please mom?"

"Okay, honey, but promise me that you will stay out of trouble."

"Deal." She smiled at me. I was about to say something to her until my dad walked in angrily.

"Why is there a phone in the pool?" He shouted at my mother.

"Your daugther was very upset and going through a break up."

"Oh. Well couldn't you have just turned it off?" He asked as he kissed my mom's cheek. I saw her face so red that I burst out laughing.

"Well?" My dad waited.

"I forgot those existed." I laughed so hard that tears were streaming out of my eyes. My dad and my mom joined me laughing. For once in my life, I was crying tears of joy instead of tears of sadness. i deserved to be happy. I then remembered the piece of paper Jace gave to me. I pulled out the crumpled piece of paper. I opened it and saw Andrew's handwriting.

Stop staring at me, stalker.

You deserve to be happy, Chloe Dawson.

He was right, I do deserve to be happy. I realized my mom's words and what she meant. When she said, "Don't write for anyone, but yourself, " she really meant, "Don't live for anyone, but yourself."

Chicago, here I come. I am going to make things right for once and all. I needed closure, and that is exactly what I was going to get. I needed to move on. I can't keep living like this.

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HELLO!!! Okay, so apparently is not ending on chapter 20. So many new ideas formed into my head, so for those of you that were disappointed the story was ending, well be happy bcause it is not ending just yet. I am a little disappointed that it is not going to end because well, let's just say, I really want to work on my new story and school sucks. Yup, I said it. Girl who loves school now hates it. I have a four day weekend, but unforunately I have to study. Lucky me. Okay, i am done.

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