I stand at the door and just stare at it. I hesitantly ring the door bell and wait. Almost instantly the door swings open and Abraham is standing there. It was almost like he was waiting for me.
"Hi" he says almost breathless, but still on the same deep nerdy voice I remember.
"Hey" I say timidly.
"Come on in" he says.
"Okay" I say as I step into the house.
It's not the biggest house in the world. It's like mine, pretty small, one story, the only thing different is all the Jesus memorabilia everywhere.
"Follow me" he says walking
And I do. He leads me down a hallway to his bedroom. We walk in and it's more simpler than I expected. A single bed, set of drawers, beige walls, a few posters but not to many, and of course his bass.
"Here sit down and let me try to find your charger" he says gesturing towards his bed.
"Um okay" I say and I awkwardly sit down oh his bed and wait.
I look at him going through his massive amount of stuff in his bed side drawers.
If you've been using it wouldn't you have it readily available??? I think
But I shake the thought off quickly and continue to watch him looking for the charger.
"I FOUND IT!!" He shouts holding up the charger in the air.
I start to laugh
"Dude you're going to punch a hole in the ceiling, you're to talk to do that" I say mixed with laughter.
He laughs and joins me on the bed. He looks at me and my eyes avoid his until they meet for a second.
"Here's your charger" he says handing it to me and looks down from my eyes "I'm sorry that I got you in trouble gene"
"Oh it's not your fault" I say and put my hand on his shoulder.
"I lied, they're mad me, not you".
He doesn't reply so I give him a hug and I start to leave. I stand up from the bed and start heading for his bedroom door.
"Gene wait" he almost shouts "I have something to tell you."
I walk back over and sit back down on the bed a little closer to him this time.
"What's up?" I ask him with no response
"Abraham if you have something to tell me you can it's fine."
He looks up at me with glossy eyes and starts
"Well I don't know if you know this already but a couple months ago came out as bi and I didn't really know why at the time. I know it's what I want but I didn't know what I wanted"
"Aw you know that I would accept you anyway, I'm gay like of course I'll accept you" I say Interrupting him.
He continues with out skipping a beat
"At the time I had that thing with Caity and I thought that's what I wanted, but when I saw you at Aladdin and we practically spent the whole night together I started to realize what I really wanted"
"But didn't you-"
"Yes I know I asked her out but look how long that lasted. After the break yo I started to miss you and the more I missed you the more I realized why I wanted to come out, and the hat I wanted"
I stay silent as I look into his eye, mine glossy just as his.
"The at American idiot I got to see you and that's when I decided you're what I want"
I stare at him in silence and shock. In almost tears I manage to choke out
"This is real" I sob "you're kidding. I'm being punched right?? Who's here???"
Tears start rolling down my face. He wipe them off with his hand.
"No gene I really do like you, a lot"
I stared at him with more tears flowing out of my eyes. He grabs both the of my hands, looks at me and says
"Gene will you be my first real boyfriend?"
I nod my head and manage to choke out a small "yes" through my tears and I let out a breathless smile. He brings me in to his arms and I am comforted by my real life boyfri-
It stops and it's dark. I'm in my bed. Alone and now sad. I begin to cry, but for real this time. In real life. Not for happiness but for sadness. I turn around on to my pillow and sadly say.
"It was just a dream, just a fucking dream. A dream that will never come true."
I lay there sobbing, afraid to go back to sleep. It's to much like reality. It's physically hurting me and I don't know how much more I can take.
