In Death We Shall Cry For You

I Miss You With All My Heart

"So long to all my friends"

This was the time of year I missed him the most, the day the snow had finally melted and you could see the new grass growing fresh and bright over the older grass. And when the new born animals began to prance about, their mothers watching from a safe distance.

"Everyone of them met tragic ends"

We would usually go to the nearby sheep field and we would stand on the bottom bar of the wooden fence, talking as the sheep and lambs trotted around in their field.

"With every passing day"

We would talk about anything and everything for ever. It always felt like decades in my heart. I always think back to the time a sheep 'baa'd at us and he looked taken a back.

"I'd be lying if I didn't say"

But I would never see that face again. Because he was never coming home to me.

"That I missed them all tonight"

Looking back, if I could have done anything to make his death any less painful than I had already done so, I would have. I would have sacrificed my life, my heart and my soul for him. I would trade my body and would never regret it even when my last breath was taken.

"And If they only knew what I would say"

He would be forced to take it all. Not because I have pity for him. But because I love him.

"If I could be with you tonight"

I love him with all my heart and always have. And always will.

"I would sing you to sleep"

People ridiculed me for saying 'love'. Not because they are against homosexuals, but because they all deem it unhealthy.

"Never let them take the light behind your eyes"

Yet, enlighten me please, how is it fucking unhealthy if the one person I had ever loved was my soulmate? Was my other half? Was the one reason I wanted to live?

"One day I'll lose this fight"

And now 'they' had taken him away from me. My one true love. My soul. The only way I can even fathom living anymore is giving up on everyone else. Screw the world. I want to be with my love.

"As we fade in the dark"

I stomped through the snow just to see him. My coat was heavy and thick around my shoulders, but I savoured the warmth. I never wanted it to go.

"just remember you'll always burn as bright"

He had ran from the heating of his house for some reason I did not know. I followed him like a lost puppy, followed him all the way to the edge of a cliff.

"Be strong and hold my hand"

"Frank.... don't." I whispered. The howling wind must have carried my near silent plea as he turned to look at me.

"Time becomes of us you'll understand"

"You don't understand. I can feel my life being drained away from me. I have to end this, Gerard. It is the only way I can think of to make it all easier."