What you don't know, Wont kill you. I think...

What you don't know, Wont kill you. I think...[14]

Chapter 14

I woke up feeling groggier than ever. My eyes felt swollen from the crying and I am sure they’re red.

Suddenly everything came rushing back to me. I didn’t feel quite so depressed as I had last night, now able to think more clearly.

Sebastian. This whole time he was never what I thought him to be, let alone Sam. Sam. I looked around, my hand clutching the empty couch underneath me. He left.

As I thought the words, something washed through me. So it was all true. He only felt guilty for everything that happened in my life because of him, because of Sebastian. I shuddered. I didn’t want to think about them. I jumped to my feet to only fall backwards again.

“Whoa, head rush…” I muttered to myself, clamping my hands over my eyes to not see the room spinning around me. I was going to be sick…

“Nia? Are you alright?” I heard someone talking from above me. I opened my eyes slowly and peeked through my fingers still over my eyes.

“Sam? What are you doing here?” Hadn’t he left last night? My eyes noticed a large steaming mug in each of hands that smelled deliciously of freshly brewed coffee.

I could see that he misconstrued my words and thought I meant something else as a flash of pain passed through his eyes.

“Do you want me to leave? I can understand that after everything last night. I wouldn’t blame you if you wanted me to leave right now and—“

I jumped up, not getting head rush this time, and wrapped my arms around his waist efficiently cutting off his sentance. I never realized how tall he was… My head only came up to his chest. I felt his shift then slowly, one arm of his found its way around me as well. We stood there for a little while just hugging until I summoned up enough courage to talk.

“Sam, I’m glad you stayed. I was so sure you were going to leave and never come back” I mumbled so low I wasn’t sure he could hear me at first but then he touched my chin, pushing my head up to look at him.

“Nia, are you sure you’re alright? You were crying a lot last night and I know it was my entire fault and I feel terrible. I’m so sorry about everything I put you through in your life, you didn’t deserve it. I shouldn’t have ever come here in the first place. It was wrong to put you in danger like this.” The look he gave me made me more frightened for my safety than I have ever been, which is saying something considering I lived with the lunatic Gabe for years.

“In danger? What do you mean?” Although I asked the question, I wasn’t too sure I wanted to know the answer.

“Sebastian. I know he may have made it seem at first like he was the good guy, he will stop at nothing to get what he wants, and as you now know, he wants nothing more than the power of the sacred arrow.”

Not only did Sebastian make himself look like the good guy, but he made Sam look like the most terrible, frightening creature ever. But something made me crease my brows in confusion.

“But why am I in danger then? I mean yeah he wants the arrow power stuff but then he just has to kill my father and he gets it right?” I was shocked at myself for being able to talk about my father’s murder so casually. Was I really so callous that I would let Sebastian kill the man that is a part of me just so that he will stop chasing after me?

What about when Sebastian did get what he came here for? Like Sam said, they had to come here and follow Gabe, meaning that they don’t live here. Once Gabe is dead, will Sebastian leave? Will Sam leave? Even though I know Sam doesn’t like me like that I couldn’t completely deny that I felt something towards him. Maybe I was just so grateful that there was one person who wasn’t truly involved in my messed up past that wanted to help me. Maybe I just didn’t want to let go of him because this was the first time I have ever truly felt safe. And as I thought those things, I realized how true they were.