Unwanted

Chapter 22

Hades

I woke up to see Celina's arms wrapped around me, pulling me close to her. I smiled and kissed her head; I'm still trying to figure out why she would want to stay with me. I love her, I love her more than anything and would give my life for her. But I'm not worth it, why would she stay? How can she love me when I already hurt her? I stared at her, taking in all of her beauty. I want to mark her, but the other part of me is afraid. What if the demons from my past affect her? I'm not good enough, she doesn't deserve me, she deserves someone better.
I sighed, I hate this self hatred shit. I want to be her's and I want her to be mine, but I'm so afraid. I'm afraid that he will get her, that he'll hurt her. I regret all of those things I've done to her, I wish I could change them. I gently ran my thumb along her cheek, smiling.
Her eyes fluttered open and looked at me, they were filled with love. A love I don't understand, but I want to keep it. Something that shows I'm not completely unwanted, that there is someone out there that will love me. Despite all of my issues, and that someone is her.
I was conflicted, I can't make up my mind. I sighed and sat up, she quickly followed.
Her eyes shined with concern as she gently placed her hand on my shoulder.
She gently grabbed my chin and made me look at her. I immediately got lost in her eyes, calmness washed over me as we stared at each other.
"Are you okay?" She asked gently.
I bit the inside of my cheek before answering. "No, what if....there are many people who hate me. If we...fully accept each other then...they might hurt you." I whispered.
I hated how weak and vulnerable I sounded, but with her, that doesn't matter. I don't mind showing her this side of me, the frightened side. The side that just wants to love someone and have their true love in return. I want to protect her, but I don't know how. I can't reject her, it'll hurt her. I will never cheat on her, that would hurt more than anything. I want to protect her from the pain, emotional and physical.
She sighed, "Hades, I don't care. I can protect myself, you're my mate. I'm not leaving you, you can't make me. I was born to have two mates and I would have to chose. I already did though, then minute I decided to give you a chance I decided.
I've been testing you, seeing how our relationship would be. Honestly, it's a mess, but we're a mess as well. I love you, nothing is ever going to change that. I need you and you need me." She stated, holding my face.
I had no idea what to say, but I did know one thing. I'm madly in love with this beautiful girl, I'm whipped. I didn't care though, goddess, all of the world could see me following her around and doing what she says, but I wouldn't care. If that means it's showing her that I love her, then so be it.
I'm a mess, my mind is a mess, but when I'm with her I feel loved. I've been waiting years to feel this again.
I smiled and crushed my lips against her's, sparks exploding between us. She quickly went along with the kiss, our lips moving in sync. When we parted I smiled and admired her beauty.
"I love you, Celina." I murmured.
She grinned and kissed once more, "I love you too, my Alpha."
I chuckled, this girl is absolutely amazing. She's the only thing keeping me here, after years of just wanting to...vanish.
I continued to kiss her gently and she responded with a rougher kiss. I smiled as she shoved me down onto the bed and straddled my waist.
Our kiss became wilder as we started to feel each other. (Sexual content.) She started to grind on me, causing me to moan.
"Celina..." I groaned, my mind becoming foggy.
She stopped kissing me and stared into my eyes.
"You're mine." She whispered before kissing down my neck.
I quickly flipped us over, her on the bottom and me on top. I smirked at her wide beautiful eyes.
"You are something else." I whispered as I leaned down.
I kissed and sucked on her neck, making moan after moan escape her mouth.
I then reached where her neck and shoulder meet and found her weak spot. Where I would mark her some day.
"Hades..." She breathed, clawing my back.
I chuckled, "We aren't even having sex and you're already clawing my back."
She laughed, "Well, you found my weak spot, what can I say?"
I laughed and continued to kiss her. She bucked her hips and grinded on me again, causing me to feel pleasure.
"Baby...if you want to stay a virgin, then I suggest you stop doing that." I breathed.
She smirked, "What if I don't want to?"
I stared at her in bewilderment, "You're just dazed by the lust, you're not ready for that."
"But..."
I then froze as her scent hit me and her skin got warmer. She's in heat.
"Yeah, you're definitely not ready for it, sweetheart. You're in heat." I whispered.
She groaned, "Son of a bitch."
I chuckled, "Come on, let's get you in a cold bath. It'll help you with your heat."
She furrowed her eyebrows, "How would you know?"
"My dad used to always make my mom take a cold bath whenever she was in heat. She would lay on the couch sweating and in pain from it, so my dad would do this for her. I asked him why he would always do that whenever she would go into heat.
He told me that if you truly love someone, you'll do anything to take the pain away." I explained.
She stared at me, a smile forming on her face.

Author's note: Now, you can see how his mind works. He's terrified of someone and doesn't want to hurt her.
He's going all over the place with his feelings lol
Hope you enjoyed this fluffy chapter :)