A Jinxx love story.....

Ashley found out.....

I woke up the next day to a text from Ashley,

A: We need to talk.

L: Ok, see you at the studio in an hour

I was scared to think what he wanted to talk about, I got dressed in a simple pair of black skinny jeans and a grey vest top with my AA hoodie, and black converse. I ran out to my car and started the drive to the studio, and cause of traffic it took me an hour. When I got there I saw Ashley's car parked up and then I started to get really nervous. I got out if my car and walked up to the door, I knocked gently and Ashley immediately opened the door and pulled me inside.

He shut the door and turned to face me, he didn't look angry, he seemed almost upset. "Ash, what's wrong?" I asked hoping it wasnt something I did. He didn't say anything for a while, he just stood there looking at me. Then he spoke, "what's wrong? what's wrong? How about you harming yourself? That's what's wrong." And I instantly thought to myself, shit.

"I don't think what I do to myself is any of your buisness," I said before I stormed out, well attempted to cause Ash caught my arm and pulled me back. "It became my buisness when you became my friend, and don't bother trying to lie about it. I saw the bloody tissue on your wrist yesterday. I don't know what it is that made you hurt yourself but cutting is never the answer," he said as he hugged me gently. And for some reason I just got angry.

"How do you fucking know? Have you ever dealt with self-harming? You don't know how I feel, you don't know how good I feel after I cut. I feel free, now leave me alone and stay out of my buisness," I shouted before I shrugged him off and stormed out. As soon as I opened the door, the rest of the guys were pulling into the driveway of the studio. I couldn't deal with them right now, I ran to my car and got inside and started the engine. I started to drive off, when Ashley stood infront of my car.

"Get the fuck out of my way," I shouted out of my window. I saw the rest of the guys trying to sneak up on me to open a door and either get inside, or pull me out of my car. So I locked the doors before they could, "everyone needs to fucking leave me alone. Now move Ashley before I run you down," I said. Clearly Ashley could hear the truth in my voice, and see the truth in my eyes so he ran out of the way just before I skidded off and away from everyone.

I kept driving, not really any destination in mind, just far away from everything. I found myself at the Hollywood sign, I got out of my car and trecked up to the sign. I sat down, leaning against the base of the Y and just looked out at the city. I took out my phone and took pictures of the city and the surrounding enviroment, I kept taking pictures until I heard a cough beside me. I almost dropped my phone, I caught it and turned to tell the person who coughed to fuck off, but I saw it was BVB. I stood up, dusted myself off and started to walk higher up the mountain and away from them, but they followed.

"Lucy, please talk to us, please listen to us," Jinxx shouted to me, I knew he shouted cause he knew I would listen to him cause I liked him. I fought against my urges to stop and just kept walking, "leave me alone," I shouted back and then I broke into a run. I could hear them running after me, and that just made me run faster. I kept on running until I reached the top of the mountain, with no where else to go, except back down. So I just laid down, flat on my back and stared at the sky, and screamed.

Everyone sat around me and I just straight out ignonred them. "Lucy, please talk to us, we care about you and want to make you better," Jake whispered. I sat up and stared him down, "I'm not sick, I'm not diseased. I am not broken, you can't make me better if I'm not sick. Now why wont you listen to me, just leave me alone," I said as I got up and started walking back down to my car. I was only a little way away from the guys at the top of the mountain so I could hear them mumbling about something, then something happened that shocked me into stillness, Jinxx shouted "Lucy I love you."

I stopped still and turned around, tears pouring silently from my eyes. He walked slowly towards me, everyone follwing him until he got to me. He wiped away my tears then took my hands in his, "I love you, and I'm not afraid to let the world know," he said before his kissed me full on, no holding back. I wrapped my arms around his neck, eventually we pulled away from each other and smiled softly at each other. Jinxx took hold of my left arm and brought it up higher so he could see it properly, he slid my sleeve up and saw all the scars there and the frest cut from yesterday, and miraculously he wasnt freaked out by them. He just kissed each and every one and then kissed me softly again.

I giggled and pulled my arm away, he took my hand and we walked back down to my car together. We were talking and laughing all the way down and when we got to my car, I grabbed my cigarettes and made Jinxx lift me onto the roof of my car. I sat there smoking for a while just sitting there quietly when some lyrics for some new songs came into my head. I pulled out my phone and started writing a new song, Jinxx was always trying to look overmy shoulder to read it but I kept blocking him.

Eventually I had finished and I made everyone stand in a semi-circle around the front of my car whilst I sang the song. When I finished everyone clapped and I bowed, "it's called Ressurect The Sun," i said as I slid off of my car. Everyone seemed to be in agreement that they liked the song, then they all turned to Andy, "well let's go to the studio and record it then," he said and everyone scrambled into their cars. I got in my car with Jinxx and sped off infront of everyone.

Me and Jinxx got to the studio before everyone else, and we even had time to stop at a liquor store on the way. We had unlocked the studio and were waiting inside, me sat in my armchair holding my bottle of Jack Dainels, and Jinxx was sat in the recording booth playing about with his violin. Then everyone else arrived, they walked in and I just laughed at them. They were covered in durt dust, I raised my eyebrow at them as Jinxx came out of the recording booth.

"What happened to you?" I said laughing. "The car wouldn't start, so we all got out and pushed at various times and then the car sped ahead and we were literally left in the dust," Andy said as he brushed himself off.

Then we got back into writing and recording, and it was so much fun.

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Sorry for taking so long

Next part up soon.....