Now That I've Found You...

NTIFY (11)

He froze. I froze. John froze.
"Is it benign or malignant?" Stephanie was the only one who could speak.
"It's benign, that's the good news. Because it's not too dangerous, we should be able to surgically remove the tumor. But, we need your consent since you are 18 now." the doctor announced.
"Is it guaranteed that you'll remove all of the tumor?" He questioned.
"That's what we're aiming for."
"And will I come out alive?" His grip on my hand got tighter.
"Yes. You will come out alive." She smiled, a subtle gesture to ease the obvious tension in the room. He nodded. "Okay, we will schedule a surgery for you as soon as possible." And with that she left the room.

He stared at the wall in front of him once again and I squeezed his hand, pulling him out of his trance. I rested my head on his shoulder and he rested his head on mine after kissing it.

"It's gonna be okay. I promise. You are gonna go in that operating room, they are gonna work their magic, you are gonna come out like the strong sexy champ that I know you are and we're gonna go home and get you out of this dress that has your ass hanging out." We laughed. It felt good to be able to make him laugh even with everything going on. He needs to laugh. I need to see him smile to know that everything will be fine.
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It was now 6:14 in the morning and I barely slept. I just woke up in cold sweats from this nightmare; I was in the hospital, looking through the window of the "Operating Room" doors and I could see what looks like Dr. Matthews working on his brain but to my surprise, when the person turned around, it was Marcus. He looked at me with these big, brown, watery, sad eyes and then he just became so enraged. He took the scalpel that was in his hand and kept stabbing Bennie over and over again and when there was enough blood splatter on him, he slowly crept up to me. I tried to run away but it was like my body was stuck. I looked down at my feet, wondering why they weren't working and there was blood all over me. I realized that it was my blood. I had stab wounds all over my body but I was still alive. By the time I looked back up for him, he got up to me and reached out to grab me, but I woke up screaming in Bennie's arms.

I opened my eyes to the sleekness of his soothing voice. "Calm down babe. I'm right here. Its just a nightmare." Were things he was saying in my ear while rubbing my arms. I jumped up and looked around. For a second, I thought he was Marcus so I moved to punch him but right before I caught him in the jaw, he grabbed my arms and I couldn't move.

"Look into me." His voice so calm. I listened to his instructions and dove into his eyes.

"I am here. You are going to be okay." And with those words my mind was at peace and my body relaxed. I grabbed him and cried, hugging him so tightly. He rubbed my back with one hand and with the other he rubbed the back of my head. After he fell to sleep, I went down to the chapel and prayed.
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Author's Note
Sorry for the delay guys, I had a lot of crappy things going on. But I have a question, what do you think this dream could mean seeing that Marcus is long dead and gone? Does it have any meaning of importance at all?

I'll try to update more! Thanks for the support! ☺😘