Now That I've Found You...

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Bennie and I were being discharged from the hospital today.

We were slowly walking to my mom's car since the crash messed up his leg a little and my arm... When we were walking through the halls of the eighth floor, I glanced at the wall and saw a room number a couple rooms down from ours; Roon 828. It said on the door 'Andrews, Marcus'. The hairs on the back of my neck were standing.

"Babe what are you doing?" Bennie asked but I wasn't paying attention to him. I peeked through his room window, he was lifeless.. It was sad.. But guess what I was safe and happy and in love! Everyone that I love are safe and sound. It was like on one hand I thought about the person I once loved and I would feel bad for him. Then on the other hand I thought about Jamie, Jenn, Bennie.. He hurt them.. He hurt me.. Then I start to feel relieved that he's still in a coma, he doesn't need to hurt anyone else..

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In the car, driving home, I looked out to my left and saw the most beautiful sunset; I had a moment. I rolled down the windows, put down the sun roof, the wind was blowing so beautifully in my hair. I felt so free! Bennie was looking at me like I was a crazy person.

"You don't feel that!?" I asked him. "Look!" I showed him that amazing sunset and he stared in amazement; eventually he started to laugh and throw his hands up in the air. WE felt so free. Just to think a couple days ago, we were in a coma, fighting for our lives; fighting for each other's lives. A few weeks ago we were clinging onto life itself. I remembered what happened from the crash.. It came to my dreams in pieces.. First the call with Marcus; his words stuck in my head:

"If I can't have you Samantha, No one else can.."

Then I remembered Bennie screaming my name:

"SAMMIE! SAMMIE NOO!"

When our cars collided;

When we splashed into the water;

When Bennie saved me...

When I looked at that sunset, I was grateful. I was grateful to be given the chance to see one of those for another time; grateful to feel the wind blow in my hair another time; see my friends and family another day; hug them and kiss them another day; grateful to hold my partners hand, to kiss his lips, to hug him, to say 'I love you' another time. I was just grateful. WE were just grateful to be alive; to be HAPPY and alive.