Connected Cords

Chapter One

"I want a divorce," His voice rang inside my head as I stared deeply at his dark eyes. My heart was slowly tightening
when it started to sink in. He wanted a divorce.

Alam kong doon na din kami tutungo pero bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko? He's mine. And will always be mine. Iyon din dapat ang gagawin ko pero inaalala ko ang anak namin. I didn't want Maddison to grow up with a broken family like me. I wanted her to grow as a happy and an ecstatic girl.

I untangled my arms around his neck and took steps backward.

"Why?" I asked, frowning and ignoring the erratic beating of my heart, afraid of what he was going to say.

"Marge," He sighed, his tired eyes were staring hesitantly at me.

"Bakit Greg?" I asked, my face was masked with a stoic expression.

"Because we both know that this marriage is not going to work!" He whisper yelled. Anger and pain were mixing inside me as I clenched my jaw without changing the expression that was plastered on my face.

"No. We can't. Think about Maddie, Gregory. We have a fucking daughter and I am sure as hell that she is the one who will be the most affected person when we separate. Yes, our marriage is on the rocks but we have to sacrifice for the sake of our only daughter," I fired back, proud of myself for staying calm and stating those sentence without shouting at his gorgeous face.

"I'm trying to save this marrige, pero ramdam ko na ako nalang ang lumalaban para sa relasyon na 'to. I have sacrificed enough, Margaux. We were fighting a lot and we both know that the only reason why we're still staying at this fucked-up marriage is because of fucking sex. Ayoko na Margaux." He stated, his breathing was shallow because of his outburst. But the anger on the pit of my stomach rose, overpowering the pain inside my chest.

"Bakit sa tingin mo ba ay hindi ko na sinusubukang isalba 'to Greg?! I'm fucking giving you the pleasure that you wanted! I'm doing everything that will please you! Kulang pa ba 'yon? Ha? May iba na bang nagbibigay n'on sayo kaya ka nakikipaghiwalay sakin ngayon? Meron na ba?! Tell me who the fuck your whore is! Tell me!" I burst out, becuse I could not contain my emotions anymore. I was furious, I was hurt. Tears were threatening to fall from my eyes and I took my willpower to prevent them from falling.

"Oo Margaux! Meron! I have a woman who's satifying me more than you could! She can please every inch of my body! But those are not fucking important! Kasi ang totoong nakita ko sa kanya ay ang mga bagay na hindi mo na ipinapakita sa akin. She is more a wife figure than you are. Mahal niya ako Margaux, at 'yon ang hindi ko na nakikita pa sayo." That's it. I miserably failed on preventing my tears from falling. They started to flow down on my cheeks like a running water of a river. The pain inside my chest got worse like a thousands of waves that were splashing on the ocean.

My mind got clouded because of pure betrayal and pain. I slapped his cheek with all the strength that I had that night. And then the other cheek. I slapped it hard even though I was feeling so weak.

"Hayop ka! Hayop ka, Greg! Putang ina mo! Kahit kailan, kahit kailan hindi kita niloko! Because I still respect you! I still fucking respect you as my husband!" I managed to shout between my sobs habang hinahampas ang dibdib niya. Masakit pala. It was more painful than I expected. Because I was already having speculations, sometimes when he got home, I could smell a perfume of a woman lingering on his shirt, may pagkakataon pa nga na may nakita akong lovebite sa dibdib niya at alam kong hindi ako ang gumawa noon.

All I ever needed was a confirmation from him, but when I heard it, it was more afflicting that I could ever imagine. It was like rubbing rock salt on an already open wound.