Connected Cords

Chapter Six

A/N: Unedited.

Pakiramdam ko ay lulubog na ako sa kama dahil sa higpit ng pagkakahawak ni Greg sa mga balikat ko. Pero hindi ko 'yon ininda dahil ang mga mata ko at nanlalabong nakatingin sa mga mata ni Greg. I tried to reas his mind through his eyes, all the emotions that I could see were, anger, betrayal, pain... and fear.

It was quiet astounding how he could manage to fit those different emotions in his eyes. Samantalang ako naman ay takot lamang ang nararamdaman ko noong gabing iyon. Pilit kong hinahalungkat ang utak at makapagdahilan kay Greg pero hindi bumubuka ang bibig ko.

"G-greg.." I whispered and wiggled underneath him, hoping that ge would let me go.

"Sino si Creed, Margaux?" Nanggigigil na tanong niya at mas lalong dumiin ang pagkakapiga nya sa mga balikat ko. I whimpered and winced because of the pain.

"Greg.. na-nasasaktan ako.." I plead and it was succeeded by a pool of tears that fell on my temple.

"Are you.. are you cheating on me, Margaux?" Halos pabulong na sabi niya at tuluyan ng umalis sa ibabaw ko at naupo sa tabi ko. Nakahinga ako ng maluwag noon at humugot ako ng hinginga ng maraming beses.

My shoulders stinged but it was the least that I'm worried about. Tumagilid ako dahil hindi ko kayang humarap kay Greg. I grasped the comforter tightly againts my chest as I feel my tears fell.

"How could you accuse of the sin that you're doing?" Nanghihinang sagot ko sa kanya at suminghot. Punyetang luha.

"Just answer me who the hell Creed is," Nanggigil na sabi niya. I could picture him rubbing his palms on his face and raking his hand through his hair because of frustration and anger.

"A friend," Tipid na sagot ko.

Natawa naman ito ng mapakla. "A friend? You mentioned him when we reached both of our highs, Margaux! You fucking mention your friend in the middle of our orgasms!" He finally shouted, lalo namang humigpit ang hawak kong comforter na bumabalot sa hubad kong katawan.

"He..he went for the screening earlier and unfortunately, he was overage. I.. My attitude towards him earlier was a little off. Nalate pa siya kaya natarayan ko siya. But after hearing his reason.. I felt guilty. Kaya..kaya.." Hindi ko matuloy ang sasabihin ko dahil alam kong mas lalo siyang magagalit kapag nalaman niyanv si Creed ang kasama ko buong tanghali.

"Kaya ano?" Nagtitimping tanong niya. Goodness. I never thought that lying can be this hard.

"I just.. just offered him to have lu..lunch with me." I bit my lip hard afterwards.

"So you were with him, busy eye fucking him while I was like a fucking reatard for freaking out and worrying so much because I can't contact you?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong niya. He sounded like a wounded puppy causing my lips to tremble. Shit, I was so fricking guilty.

But as I think deeply, the reason why I was really preoccupied, was because of his other woman. Somehow, that thought gave me the urge to fight back and forget the guilt that was seeping through my heart.

"Even if while I was with him, images of you and your whore were just playing inside my head and it's.. it's so abhorrent, Greg. You admitted right in front of my face that you have another woman, what did you expect me to do? Just let you fuck me, and fuck me, and then be okay with everything?" I was trying to hold back my tears, and I can't even look at him. I looked up and bit my lower lip that was quivering.

"So you find another man, huh? Is that it?" He was a little calm yet more intimidating. Mas natatakot ako pag tahimik at seryoso siya. Parang mas ayos pa nga ang sumisigaw siya dahil atleast alam ko kung ano ang tunay niyang nararamdaman.