Future

Chapter 8

Arizona's POV: I don't want to stop. But I have too. Is she kissing me back? I think so. I hope so. How long have we been kissing? It feels like forever. But not just any forever. A lost forever that I had just found. I don't want this to stop but I have too. I pull back and look into her beautiful eyes.

"I'm sorry." I say out of nervousness.

"Why?" She asks. Confused.

"I'm not sure. Because you're married."

"You're married too." She states. I forgot. We stand in silence. I can't tell if it's a good silence or bad. It feels good. Just being in the same air as her. I miss her more than words can say.

"Callie." I start to say. I am not sure if I should finish. "I love you" I guess I'm gonna finish. "I've been I love you since you walked away from me. I have tried to move on. You can see that. I have a wife. And three more kids. But I love you. I can't get away from you. I just-" I get cut off by her lips. This kiss. It's better than the last one. So passionately. So fierce. I kiss back. I snake my hands around her back. Then up her shirt. She does the same. Soon she picks me up and carries me to my bedroom. The one I share with Carly. She throws me on the bed and then climbs on top of me. She kissed me and I push her back.

"Wait." I say.

"What? I thought-" she cuts herself off.

"I can't do this to Carly. To Mia."

"Mia..." She trails off as if she forgot. She sits on my hips. I want this. I want her. But I can't. Not like this. Not while both of us are married. She flops down onto the bed next to me and we lay there in silence. "What are we going to do?"

"I... Don't know."

"Should we tell them?"

"I don't know"

"Should we get divorces?"

"I don't know."

"Stop saying 'I don't know'! You're not helping." She yells at me. I grow quiet. She finds my hand and laces her fingers into mine. "I'm sorry. I just am so confused." She admits.

"Me too."  I sat quietly. I close my eyes and wish that this moment, right now, would last an eternity. Laying next to the love of my life. I turn to face her, our hands still connected.

"Why didn't you say something sooner?" She asks. "Why wait all of these years?"

"I was scared. You left me. Walked away from me. I didn't think you loved me anymore." I almost whisper, trying to hold back tears. She is quiet and then turns to face me.

"I have always loved you, Arizona."

"Then why did you walk away?" I asks and a single tear runs across my face.

"I was scared and hurt. I shouldn't have left that therapy room. I'm so sorry." Callie says and starts to cry too.

"You hurt me, Calliope."

"I know. And if I could take it back, trust me, I would." She says. We lay there just staring into each other's eyes. I'm so lost in her beautiful brown eyes that I almost didn't hear her phone ringing in the kitchen.

"Your phone!" I say and she jumps up and runs into the kitchen, leaving me sitting alone on the bed. What just happened? I think to myself. Is this really happening? I sit on the edge of the bed and I can hear Callie talking on the phone.

"Uh yea I'm still at Arizona's. Why?" I hear her say and then pause. "So you're still at work? It's 11:30." Pause. "You're not coming home at all tonight?" Pause. "Ok well I'll see you in the morning?" Pause. "Ok. Then I'll see you tomorrow night." Pause. "Yep." Pause. "Me too. Bye" I hear her set her phone on the table and I get up and walk into the kitchen.

"Mia?" I ask even though I already know the answer.

"Yea. She uh is working all night. Big case." Callie says. I should probably check my phone. I walk to the counter and rummage through my purse until I find my phone. I click the home button and see I have a missed call and a text from Carly. Hey honey. Hope you are having a good time. A big trauma came in and I won't be home at all tonight and I have to work tomorrow. I'll see you at work. Love you.

"Carly?" Callie asks.

"Yea. She is gone all night." I say. We stand in the kitchen, silent, unsure of what to do next.

"So what are we going to do?" Callie asks.

"Not sure." I say. I don't want her to go home.

"I think I might leave." She says and my heart saddens a little.

"Do you have to?" I say and she looks up at me with a puzzled look. "I mean Mia isn't going to notice if you aren't home and neither will Carly or Sofia."

"I'm not sure if it's a good idea." She says.

"We could watch a movie. No touching or kissing or anything like that." I suggest. She thinks for a bit and finally answers.

"Do you have Dirty Dancing?" She asks and gives me a smile.