You're My Devotion (Hariana Fanfiction)

Chapter 18- Little Secret

CHAPTER 18

Ariana's POV

"The caliber of someone is extremely important Ariana" talked my mother. I just glared at her in response. It's true, the quality of character really is valuable in a way. We were talking about the boys and how important they were to me. She obviously caught on to the fact I had a thing with Zayn but even she couldn't predict I had a pull toward both band members; Harry AND Zayn. How disgusting of me, I felt like a big fat disappointment. Not only to my family and fans. But to me. To Ariana Grande, the true, the real, the mistaken and confused Ariana Grande. I tried to forget the bittersweet memories involving One Direction, persuading myself to forget i ever met them, but I knew I couldn't do it. The pictures of us haunted me at night and no matter what they fought a place in my brain. I wasn't even true to myself anymore, how was I supposed to be true to them, and take what's off my chest?

I was absolutely, and utterly sunken.

"What should I do mum? Is Zayn the one for me? Or is Harry?" I asked in vulnerability. She didn't answer for a minute, she didn't even look me in the eyes. What'd her silence mean?

I shook my head in confusion and left the room abruptly.

Questions filtered me with numbers i couldn't count. Being infatuated with Zayn coursed me to happiness.

Then Harry, well he had this passionate yet dangerous side to him and I guess that's what possessed me, the bad boy in him enchanted the naive girl in me.

I had missed them. I missed One Direction like crazy, but I was also ashamed to face them. I wonder what they were up to now, maybe chilling in their apartment? Or partying in night clubs? Maybe harry and zayn were hooking up with beautiful women, maybe their sick of me.

ZAYNS POV

I sat down watching the night sky displayed in the window, it was so beautiful. I found myself talking to the moon, maybe Ariana might be doing the same thing. I was just longing to see her, even if it was as just friend I'd be happy to see her smile around me and not be awkward. I missed her.

I turned my head to the left and got darkness in return, there was nothing being seen. I felt insecure, but at the same time safe. What I couldn't see wouldn't hurt me, right?

I just couldn't understand why Ariana wanted a break, she just ran away without a word not even contacting the other boys. Both Ariana and Harry were acting majorly different. It kept hitting me, what if something happened between them? But I knew this couldn't happen.

Maybe the obloquy had come to conclusion with her? Ariana just wasn't the girl to give up so Easily. There was a loop hole somewhere I just couldn't find it.

. . .

"Wake up sleepy head" a tender voice awakened me. With a smile I opened my eyes and she was there, her teeth shining so bright. Ariana stroked my head and stared into my eyes, it felt like she was caressing right into my soul. Her big brown eyes captivated me by the second. I pulled her by the waist and she wrapped her legs around me. I hotly kissed her neck. leading to her ear, i nibbled on her most sensitive areas. "Zza.." She mumbled, I guess she was trying to say Zayn. Her eyes fluttered back as I got closer to her lips. there was a centimeter between us, she threw herself at me while I backed way. I stroked her cheek and smiled while she got frustrated in lust. I fulfilled her dream and kissed her with all the

Desire within me. Gently, I pulled her top off leaving her upper body completely bare. Her cheeks burned in embarrassment. "No need to be shy love" I leered down at her. I laid her on the bed, for unfolded a gracious morning.