Yours

Chapter 11

Thomas' POV

I just blew everything. He's gone, he hates me and I just got him back. I just got him back. We finally kissed, oh my gosh I missed the feeling of his lips on mine. Now he's gone, doesn't want anything to do with me.

Something happened I don't know what but there has to be reason he asked me that but still doesn't remember. Could he just be remembering bits? That could be a possibility.

"He left?" I heard Chuck say and my eyes move to the stairs and see Chuck with sadness. Poor Chuck was so happy to see newt again but I couldn't risk him saying something about Newt and I.

"Yeah." I said, my voice hoarse. Chuck just sighed and went back upstairs and I just sat on the floor not wanting to do anything.

"I just got him back." I whispered to myself as a tear rolled down my cheek. I looked at the bracelet and more tears began flowing and I couldn't stop them. I need Newt. I can't lose him.

That's when it hit me. What if I try getting him to remember bits by bits but not make it obvious? I do things that could make him remember. Our kiss must have triggered something. Maybe I should kiss him more? Well at the moment I don't think he wants me to kiss him. I smile at the thought of him actually telling me he wants to kiss me.

He must be feeling the same way, maybe things will be ok. Just maybe.

Newt's POV

"WILL YOU BLOODY OPEN!" I yelled at my front door that wouldn't cooperate. I was no longer crying but I think it's only because I ran out of tears. I didn't mean to do that. I have huge feelings for Thomas and I pushed him away.

The door opened as I held my key in hand. Jo was standing there with a sad smile and her arms open inviting me with a hug. I instantly hugged her and held her tight.

"You want to talk about it?" She asked as we pulled away and went to her room so it could be private.

I told her all I knew, the dreams, the memories. I told her how I wasn't sure if half of these were real or not and how crazy it felt that I apparently knew Thomas but how could I have forgotten him.

"Wow that's messed up." She said and I nodded in agreement.

"So do you think it's a memory?" She asked.

"I don't know! It's just... It felt like a memory, like it already had happened but how could that be? How could I forget such an amazing person like him?!" I whined and she laughed a bit.

"Wicked got rid of your memories in the first place Newt, this shouldn't surprise you. They were crazy people but at least they found the cure. I know this is all seems weird but it does make sense." I sigh knowing that she was right.

"At least I'm remembering things about him." I say and I think about the memory. We've kissed before. That wasn't the first time. It felt like the first time to me.

"Hopefully you remember more, maybe everything about this Thomas guy." She says with a smile. I believed her for a second but something in my in my mind told me that I would never remember.

"Do you think that if I remember everything, things would go back to how they were, when I knew him?" I said feeling weird thinking about I once knew Thomas. He just feels like a stranger to me.

"I don't know Newt." She said with a sigh and we just stayed there in silence until my mum came home.

We went to go eat dinner and I could feel my dads eyes on me the whole time. It was really pissing me off. The fact that he didn't want me to remember him not accepting me, and yet again he still doesn't accept the fact that I like guys.

"Dad can you please stop staring." I said trying my best not to yell.

"This is my house I can do what I want." He said back and I was going to say something but my mum beat me to it.

"Enough! This is your son we are talking about. The day he was born you promised to love him no matter what and make sure he was always happy. Well guess what! He's happy with this Thomas boy!

I don't care about that God mumbo gumbo anymore. God loves everyone no matter what and you should love your son. I can't believe I even let this happen in the first place. Newt should be allowed to love whoever he wants because this is his feelings we are talking about. And if you choose to ignore it, well... I'm leaving you and taking the kids with me." I couldn't believe what was happening.

Mom was standing up to me. It brought a smile to my face and I hoped that my dad could actually be reasonable and see that being gay is ok. I love my father. He's not a bad person, I don't understand why he is acting like this.

"I'm sorry." Was all he said and got up and left.

"Well that's a good sign." Jo said going back to eating.

"Thanks mum." She smiled at placed a hand on my cheek.

"I love you." She said.

"I love you too."

"So tell me more about this Thomas." She said making my heart sink. Does he even like me anymore? He probably thinks I hate him. I need to fix things.

I need to remember.