Yours

Chapter 15

Newt's POV

Are these even memories? I mean, they're all about Maddy... I'm pretty sure I remember Maddy. Apparently she was never my girlfriend and she was quite a bitch. Huh. I'm starting to feel better, but I still can't open my eyes. I'm stuck in this blackness. I wonder if I'm still at Tommy's house. I wonder if it was bad to lie to Tommy about loving him back.

I can't love him. I understand I once knew him but now, I hardly know him and even though I feel like I know him since forever, it's not true. Everything's different now. I can't love him. I can't. I hardly know him.

•••

"Hey Newt." Tommy? Tommy I'm here. Shucking hell why can't I speak to him.

"They say you went into shock. I really hope you're ok." I am ok! I think.

"Minho couldn't come because he had a family emergency but your parents are here, your dads... Something." Yikes you met my dad.

"I know you don't love me." How?

"The way you said it. I know you have feelings for me and I know you used to love me. I'm not mad at you. It's shucking WICKED's fault. Those idiots. Don't think you're forced to say things to me. I just... I hope we can get your memories back." He said at the end with a sigh. I wish I could tell him everything is ok and that I'm here, but I'm not sure if everything is going to be ok. WICKED has messed me up so bad, and for what? Really? FOR WHAT?!

"I love you. I hope soon you feel the same way." I felt him kiss my head. I want to love you. I can't love a stranger. I felt sick. The fact that I once loved him and now that he's just a stranger to me is killing me. Why must this happen to me?

"Mine." He said lastly holding my hand. Why does that sound so familiar? COME ON BRAIN WORK YOUR MAGIC, TELL ME WHY THIS IS SO FAMILIAR!! Ugh. Mine. He called me, his? Ummm. Ugh. I hate you brain, thanks for not helping me at all.

•••

It all feels normal now. It doesn't feel like memories it feels like it's a realization. I never liked Maddy and we were never together. I always wanted Tommy. Even in the glade. I really hope that's all I had to remember because I'm getting sick of these headaches. I went to message my temples... Wait. I can move my hands? I slowly opened my eyes seeing I'm in a white room.

"Yes!" I said, my voice very hoarse. I turned my head to look for water and then heard the door in the room open.

"You're awake." Ew. Not the person I was expecting.

"Hey Maddy." I said clearing my throat.

"How are you?" Oh just dandy, how the bloody hell do you think I'm doing you idiot.

"I'm ok, can you pass me the water?" She gave me a cup and I chugged it down.

"Where's Tommy?" I asked and she frowned. What? Did she expect I wanted her here? She could've helped me with my memories, all she did was go along with my messed up brain.

"He's in the washroom."

"I remember." I say and she looks at me with shock.

"Really? What do you remember?" She quickly asks.

"The truth about us." I said and she just made an 'oh' face.

"I should've told you but they told us you had to figure everything out on your own." Blah blah blah. Can she leave so I can see my Tommy.

"It's alright." I said and thankfully the beautiful boy I've been waiting to see came into the room. He stood at the door with a look of relief on his face.

"Don't be a stranger Tommy." I said and I realized, he kinda is one. He laughed a bit coming inside taking Maddy's spot on the chair as she left the room.

"I'm so happy you're awake." He said bringing a smile on my face.

"I missed you." He continued and butterflies came in my stomach.

"I missed you too." I said and he kissed my forehead.

"I know I shouldn't pressure you but do you remember anything?" He asked still rubbing my head.

"I think I do." His eyes lit up and I got so sad at the fact that he has to live through this.

"Tell me everything." He said and I nodded. How do I tell him I remember everything about Maddy and not him...?