Yours

Chapter 14

Thomas POV

"STOPPPP" Newt yelled as he continued laughing and I kept tickling him. We hardly had done any work but all I care about is that I'm with Newt. I stopped tickling him for a second and just took it all in.

His smile, the crinkles beside his eyes when he laughs too hard, the little 'tee-hee' in his laugh, the fact that he's happy because of me. I didn't need all the memories, he didn't need them either. As long as we can start over its ok with me. I'll have him with me.

"What?" He said out of breath in that adorable British accent of his.

"Nothing." I said quickly going to lay beside him on my bed.

"Tell me."

"No."

"Tell meee."

"No!" I said and he just did a cute little frown.

"Stop that." I said with a sigh.

"What?" He responded with an eyebrow raised.

"Being cute." He blushed and tried to cover his face but I took his hands away.

"You're beautiful Newt, don't try to hide it." I said making a smile appear on his face which made me smile. We stayed like that for a good minute or so. We just listened to each other's breathing and I wouldn't trade this for the world.

"I want to remember." I heard Newt mumble.

"What?" I asked lifting my head up to see his face. He sighed and sat up, playing with his hands.

"I want to remember you." He said looking straight into my eyes which took my breath away.

"Newt, it's ok--"

"No it's not ok, I want to remember you but I just can't, it comes in bits and pieces and it's killing me because I know you love me but I don't know if I feel the same!" He yelled and the words he said hit me hard.

"How do you know if I love you?" I said, my voice cracking a bit. Shuck Thomas you're making a fool of yourself.

"No, please don't cry." He said trying to comfort me but I shook it off.

"Don't change the subject." I said a little more stable. He took a deep breath before he responded.

"You told me that when you were drunk out of your bloody mind at Minho's party, and I said it back." I didn't know how to react. He knows I love him. He said it back. Why did he say it back? He just told me he doesn't know if he feels the same way. This is so confusing, why can't we just get married and adopt 5 children and have a puppy?

"Oh." Was all I said.

"Tommy..."

"Don't call me that. You don't even know how much pain that name gives me because you don't remember anything! It's not special to you!" I yelled at him and instantly regretted it after I said it.

"Actually it does. Everytime I call you that it makes me feel a certain way and I am sorry I don't remember but it's not my fault." He responded leaving the room. I quickly got up following him, thinking he may be leaving but he went in the washroom and locked the door.

I knocked on the door and put my ear against the door. I didn't hear anything for a few moments, then I heard his phone.

"Maddy?" My heart broke.

"Can we meet please? ...ok... See you." He's leaving me for Maddy. I moved away from the door and went back to my room. Shortly after Newt came in too.

"I called a ride home." He said. Yeah 'ride'.

"I love you." I sighed. Then I stiffen noticing what the shuck I just blurted out. What in the world is wrong with me.

I look up to see his reaction but he was on the floor.

"NEWT!"

Newt's POV

We're going to make bracelets." I say still smiling and I raised an eyebrow.

"Why?" He says laughing a bit.

"Because we should have matching bracelets... So we never forget each other." I said the last part slowly, stopping from sorting the strings and looking up at Tommy. I know soon they'll be taking away my memory of Tommy but I'm trying to prepare him to help in the future to remember. I can't believe I'll be forgetting the love of my life.

"Ok but I don't know how to make one." He says and I smile again, he's such a cutie... I'm going to miss him.

"Don't worry I'll teach you." I said.

I couldn't open my eyes. My head was killing and I could her Tommy calling my name. A bunch of memories, I think they're memories are coming all over the place. Some are showing great detail and some appear for a good few seconds but I can't tell what's happening.

I felt like I was gonna pass out, but before I do I need to let Tommy know something.

"I love you too Tommy," and then I blacked out.