Yours

Chapter 6

Newt's POV

Thomas is so bloody perfect. I've just met the guy and he's already all I could think about. I was so off with his name its kind of funny.

I'm in my room trying to do homework, emphasis on trying. Thomas has corrupted my brain. Not only is he extremely attractive, he's sweet, and funny. He kept complimenting me today and I couldn't help but blush. I really hope he didn't see all those times I blushed because then he would think I'm weird.

The thing that was bothering me the most is the fact that I've never felt like this before, I think. Gosh I think I'm gay. I have no idea why I was with Maddy in the first place. Was I even with Maddy? I don't really remember much about Maddy in the glade. I remember kissing her a few times but the feelings for her... They don't seem real.

I feel like my brain has been tampered with. I look down at my bracelet not sure how I got it but it always brings me joy to look at it. Weird, I know. It makes me feel safe and at ease. I think there's a meaning behind this bracelet but I can't seem to figure it out. It's like the bracelet just appeared on my wrist one day.

It was cute. It was made of string and was with the colours blue and green. There was also an initial on it. T. Wonder what that stands for.

Tree? Ten? Truck? Tuesday? I have no idea.

I think I should tell my parents about how I feel about guys. Well technically it's only been one guy. I have seen boys in a different perspective than girls. I remember in the glade Gally once tried to kiss me and asked me to be his boyfriend. Of course I said no. I don't like Gally in that way and would never like Gally, period.

There are cute guys at my school though. Especially that Thomas guy. He's really something. I feel butterflies whenever I'm around him and he's just so amazing and perfect ugh. Sometimes I get this urge to just kiss him.

I need to chill out. I just started talking to him I don't want to freak him out. I really want to become close to him. It's funny how he knows all my friends from the glade. It's sort of like he was there... With us. My head began to hurt at the thought so I decided to take an Advil and start homework.

Why does he seem so familiar all of the sudden?

•••

Today was Friday and tonight Minho is having a party. I'm not really the kind of person to go to those kind of things but I heard Thomas is going so maybe this will help me get to know him better.

I don't know if it just me, but it looks like Thomas is flirting with me and I guess I'm flirting back sometimes. I really hope I'm not getting the wrong message. I don't even know if he's gay, but I sure hope he is. Is he even single?

"Hey Newt." I heard Thomas say sitting across from me eating his lunch. I tried to bite back a smile and waved. I looked down at my bracelet not really feeling like eating.

"Nice bracelet you have there." Thomas said.

"Uh yeah thanks. I don't know how I got it or what it means but I feel like it's special to me." I say and Thomas smiles widely.

"What?" I ask.

"Nothing, you're just so cute." He says. My face felt hot as I looked down and muttered a thanks.

"You mind if I ask you for your number I realized I don't have it and thought, it would be cool, if we uh texted." Thomas said.

"Um uh yeah, totally." Bloody hell why am I so nervous around him? We exchanged phones as I entered my name and phone number in his and he did the same to mine. When I got back my phone I felt my face heat up at the contact name he put.

Babe. He put it as babe. With a heart emoji.

"I hope you don't mind the name." He winks at me and I just want to cover my face so I could stop embarrassing myself. He needs to stop making me feel this way. I look like a loser.

"It's fine uh, but won't your girlfriend think it's weird?" I say trying to finally figure out if he's taken.

"Nope, because I don't have one." He says taking another bite of his sandwich.

"Well that's good, but I guess I should change you know so people don't think we're gay or something." I say as I change it to Tommy with a heart. I like the name Tommy. I've never called him that though.

"Well I wouldn't really care since I am gay, but if it does bother you, you can change it." He says and it really makes me happy that he's gay and that he's so sweet. How is he single?

"You're so amazing." I blurt out. I cover my mouth and cursed under my breath.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to say that." I say quickly. Now I shucked everything up. He thinks I'm weird.

"It's totally fine. I think you're amazing too." He says with a reassuring smile. His presence made me so happy in general. The way he treats me makes me happy. I wish I had him in the glade so I wasn't so bloody depressed. Oh god how I hated that place.

The bell rang and I really wish it didn't. Now I won't see Thomas until tonight. I just want to spend every second with him.

"Bye Newt."

"Bye Thomas see you tonight." He gave me a quick hug and my stomach was doing cartwheels. My heart is racing and I'm sure my face was red. This feeling felt so familiar and I tried to figure out why i felt like this.

Thomas why do I feel like I know you?