Nurture. (A Justin Bieber's FanFic)

16;A horrible Nightmare Caught Me

Isabelle's POV

I stare at Justin and Ryan who are looking at the floor. No one says a word. I look at Justin and sigh. I don't know how i'm supposed to feel.

All I know, I'm not mad at Justin. Ryan is one of my close friends as well, and sex is definitely his favorite topic, he had to know after all.

"I'm sorry" I hear Ryan's whisper, I look at him and smile warmly "its fi-" he cuts me off "no it isn't! I swear If i had known I wouldn't have said all of these things and I-" I cut him off "Ryan, it's alright. Really" he shakes his head "No, it isn't" he whispers and shakes his head.

We fell into an awkward silence. Justin doesn't say anything or even raise his head. "How?" Suddenly Ryan asks, "how?" I make a confused face, he takes a deep breath "I mean who, and when?" He asks, "my ex boyfriend" I say and play with my fingers "is he in Jail now?" He asks, I shake my head "dead?" He asks, I shake my head.

"He went.. Away" I awkwardly say. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE WENT AWAY?" Suddenly Ryan outburst, i shrug. "Are you saying, he raped you and just went and disappeared?" He asks, I stare at him for few seconds "not exactly"

"How did he even raped you if you were his girlfriend? I mean, didn't you like him? Were you a virgin? And-" I cut him off, "Ryan, question by question" I say and he takes a deep breath and curses under his breath.

"No, I wasn't a virgin. I've already lost it to him and-" he cut me off "then how the hell-" i cut him off, "LET ME TALK" I suddenly scream, he mumbles 'sorry, complete'

"I caught him cheating on me with my best friend and-" he cuts me off "oh god-" i cut him off completing, "and I wanted to break up, and this is where it all started and-" he cuts me off once again, "Are you saying he raped you more than once?" Asks Ryan.

"My god" huffs Justin, I look at him and he's glaring at Ryan, "yeah" I mumble. "How many time?  He asks, "lost count on thirty" I say feeling quite ashamed.

"Why haven't you told anyone?" He asks, "I was afraid no one would belie-" suddenly Justin cuts me off, "you had marks that would prove!" He spoke angrily surprising me.

"He was threatening me, and I was afraid Okay?" i spoke angrily, "afraid of what for fucks sake?" He asks frustrated. "Of everything! Of him himself! Of mom knowing she won't believe me because she thinks Tom is an angel came from heaven and-" he cuts me off. "Your mom would believe you! You just haven't taken a chance" he says angrily.

"You don't know mom when it comes to Tom Okay?" I scream at him, "She-" I cut him off, "YOU FUCKING DON'T KNOW HER!! She loves him more than me! She even slapped me when I told her we've broken up thinking I cheated on him! And when he called to check up on me in Hawaii she-" Justin cuts me off, "he called your mom to check up on you recently?" He asks.

"YES! AND SHE TOLD HIM TO TRY AND GET BACK TO ME! AND I'VE BEEN STRESSING OVER THIS SUBJECT A LOT LATELY AND-" I suddenly shut my mouth noticing my eyes are getting teary. No I won't cry. You're strong Isabelle, don't cry. Not now. I told myself and blink few times.

We fall in another silence. "So in your whole life you only slept with Tom?" Suddenly Ryan asks after all the screaming that has happened with Justin. "Yes Ryan. What do you think?"Justin answers, I open my mouth "willingly yes. Tom only" I say, Justin and Ryan both look at me.

"What do you mean?" Justin asks as I feel his glare is going to kill me. I sigh "are you saying there's another guy who -" I cut him off "yes, there is" I say, Justin stares at me for a moment "who?" He asks.

"I don't know. A guy Tom brought with him once" I say uncomfortable. It kind of feels great to say all of this, i've never dared to say them to anyone. But at the same time it feels weird.